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.Monday, September 6, 2010.

Been a while since i have blogged.
Well,the weekend was as normal. Boring but it was not too bad.My brother and i helped my mother finish her goods by Saturday night. I played Dragonica with my brother for the whole of Sunday afternoon. In the morning had fusionball. Then at night watched shows. Had to say this, studying for maths was like torture to me.

It was monday already, in a few hours time was the exam. Due to high expectations of maintaining an A hit my head. It was causing so much emotions in my head. Scared of failure, nervous, anxious and fear. I stoned at home for a while then i decided to go out. I had such low esteem that i was afraid of how the public would look at me. I avoided eye contract and seems to be in my own world. I do think that bystander can actually see the emotions through my faces and eyes. For a moment i felt like crying but i was not able to cry. Unless my other half appeared. i was so close to tears but i freshen up and look around to see if the other half was there. But to no avail???

Reached school and i was alone, not wanting to be seen. I chiong to a remote place which was outside my school HCDE lab. The concourse was filled with so many people. I was breaking out in cold sweat. I sat on the bench not knowing wad to do hence i sms Wang Fei JieJIe and YuYing JieJIe^^ . Since YuYing Jiejie was still in lesson. I sms with Wang Fei Jiejie who was havign lunch. she did help to forget the state i was in. Thanks for being by my side^^ So good to have JieJIe Thank YOG.

My friends came and i stop smsing. Chatted with my friends Nah didnt at all. still enclosed in my own world. Then it was the math paper. Was stumped by the last 2 question which packed the punch it costed 8% of my overall. At the end of the paper found i got careless due to lack of focus. Lost another 4% overall. Now my GPA might be only B+ for math 3.5? will it pulled me down? I was so close to a A a mere 2 %.

I took bus to tamp interchange with a bunch of friends. I didnt talk all the way i was thinking back. I chatted again with YuYing JieJIe and Wang Fei JieJIe. Even thought mention the math paper, i could cry and feel so depressed but they didnt know that wad they was doing was consoling me. THey didnt notice that their sms did cheer me up a bit and then bits by bits. My facial expression was getting from worst to a better state. Thanks JieJIe^^ I was so down in the train that i didnt notice others were looking at me as if concern what was happening to me haha.

Well, went home, Since it is a bye bye to math1 i didnt care about it le. I went and played with my brother again.That did cheer me up too. My JieJie and my borther^^ what else can i hope for. A biological JieJIe? haha

Had a good night sleep, the dreams was so good that i didnt want to wake up. At first i was a kamen rider then i was fighting with the real kamen rider. Hahas then i was with my poly frens when my friend was giving out her wedding invites and i was giving mine. i look at the name it was anne something. Haha so weird. Then i was with my primary school frens. MeiJIn,guiYuan was two of which i remember cos i was treating them to a meal, the MeiJin(meimei in real life) was ordering more then i was Papa to her in the dream.Then was at our seats where we chatted with Gui Yuan. Today is GuiYuan birthday^^ what could be better.

Woke up and was back in my life, open my mails and saw there was going to be Primary school outing cool. my bro and sis was going so i decide to go as well^^ So missed my primary school frens.

On the facebook, i saw my junior class video of 4e2, it was very nice, it brought back memories of my secondary school class as well my 4e2 2009 and 3e2 2008. We was the top 2 of the best class spirit award but lost to sec5 due to them having more moments. In sec4 we did a super nice video but was not posted as we handed in late? But we did ask for extension and he gave us his words. Feel that 2009 class Video definably will not have won if faced with our class video as my friends from the winning class saw our video and the find it the nicest and is very touching too.

YuYing JieJIe want to see my class video here is the link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqE8bdfhmqs

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