Life of LeiMen

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2011-01-22T23:44:00.000-08:00

This is so me

Tang Weng Chuen Raymond
Many years of research conducted by The Gallup Organization suggest that the most
effective people are those who understand their strengths and behaviors. These
people are best able to develop strategies to meet and exceed the demands of their
daily lives, their careers, and their families.
A review of the knowledge and skills you have acquired can provide a basic sense of
your abilities, but an awareness and understanding of your natural talents will
provide true insight into the core reasons behind your consistent successes.
Your Signature Themes report presents your five most dominant themes of talent, in
the rank order revealed by your responses to StrengthsFinder. Of the 34 themes
measured, these are your "top five."
Your Signature Themes are very important in maximizing the talents that lead to
your successes. By focusing on your Signature Themes, separately and in
combination, you can identify your talents, build them into strengths, and enjoy
personal and career success through consistent, near-perfect performance.
Includer
“Stretch the circle wider.” This is the philosophy around which you orient your life.
You want to include people and make them feel part of the group. In direct contrast
to those who are drawn only to exclusive groups, you actively avoid those groups that
exclude others. You want to expand the group so that as many people as possible can
benefit from its support. You hate the sight of someone on the outside looking in. You
want to draw them in so that they can feel the warmth of the group. You are an
instinctively accepting person. Regardless of race or sex or nationality or personality
or faith, you cast few judgments. Judgments can hurt a person’s feelings. Why do that
if you don’t have to? Your accepting nature does not necessarily rest on a belief that
each of us is different and that one should respect these differences. Rather, it rests
on your conviction that fundamentally we are all the same. We are all equally
important. Thus, no one should be ignored. Each of us should be included. It is the
least we all deserve.
Command
Command leads you to take charge. Unlike some people, you feel no discomfort with
imposing your views on others. On the contrary, once your opinion is formed, you
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01/23/2011need to share it with others. Once your goal is set, you feel restless until you have
aligned others with you. You are not frightened by confrontation; rather, you know
that confrontation is the first step toward resolution. Whereas others may avoid
facing up to life’s unpleasantness, you feel compelled to present the facts or the truth,
no matter how unpleasant it may be. You need things to be clear between people and
challenge them to be clear-eyed and honest. You push them to take risks. You may
even intimidate them. And while some may resent this, labeling you opinionated,
they often willingly hand you the reins. People are drawn toward those who take a
stance and ask them to move in a certain direction. Therefore, people will be drawn
to you. You have presence. You have Command.
Input
You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information—words, facts,
books, and quotations—or you might collect tangible objects such as butterflies,
baseball cards, porcelain dolls, or sepia photographs. Whatever you collect, you
collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many
things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and
complexity. If you read a great deal, it is not necessarily to refine your theories but,
rather, to add more information to your archives. If you like to travel, it is because
each new location offers novel artifacts and facts. These can be acquired and then
stored away. Why are they worth storing? At the time of storing it is often hard to say
exactly when or why you might need them, but who knows when they might become
useful? With all those possible uses in mind, you really don’t feel comfortable
throwing anything away. So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away.
It’s interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove
valuable.
Responsibility
Your Responsibility theme forces you to take psychological ownership for anything
you commit to, and whether large or small, you feel emotionally bound to follow it
through to completion. Your good name depends on it. If for some reason you cannot
deliver, you automatically start to look for ways to make it up to the other person.
Apologies are not enough. Excuses and rationalizations are totally unacceptable. You
will not quite be able to live with yourself until you have made restitution. This
conscientiousness, this near obsession for doing things right, and your impeccable
ethics, combine to create your reputation: utterly dependable. When assigning new
responsibilities, people will look to you first because they know it will get done. When
people come to you for help—and they soon will—you must be selective. Your
willingness to volunteer may sometimes lead you to take on more than you should.
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01/23/2011Individualization
Your Individualization theme leads you to be intrigued by the unique qualities of
each person. You are impatient with generalizations or “types” because you don’t
want to obscure what is special and distinct about each person. Instead, you focus on
the differences between individuals. You instinctively observe each person’s style,
each person’s motivation, how each thinks, and how each builds relationships. You
hear the one-of-a-kind stories in each person’s life. This theme explains why you pick
your friends just the right birthday gift, why you know that one person prefers praise
in public and another detests it, and why you tailor your teaching style to
accommodate one person’s need to be shown and another’s desire to “figure it out as
I go.” Because you are such a keen observer of other people’s strengths, you can draw
out the best in each person. This Individualization theme also helps you build
productive teams. While some search around for the perfect team “structure” or
“process,” you know instinctively that the secret to great teams is casting by
individual strengths so that everyone can do a lot of what they do well.
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Tang Weng Chuen Raymond
Your Top 5 Themes
Includer
Command
Input
Responsibility
Individualization
Includer
Shared Theme Description
People who are especially talented in the Includer theme are accepting of others. They show
awareness of those who feel left out, and make an effort to include them.
Your Personalized Strengths Insights
What makes you stand out?
It’s very likely that you genuinely care for every person you meet. You have a capacity for
discovering a person’s unique interests and characteristics. You make a special effort to
welcome newcomers and strangers into your life. Chances are good that you capitalize on
your ability to ask questions and listen to people’s answers, especially when meeting
strangers or newcomers. You might even be tempted to eavesdrop on what they are telling
someone else. Not wanting anyone to feel like an outsider, you are apt to draw individuals
into the conversation. Unquestionably, you search for reasons to involve them in your own or
the group’s activities. Because of your strengths, you solicit the thoughts, feelings, and advice
of many people. You do not want anyone to feel left out of a conversation, activity, meeting,
plan, or decision. Instinctively, you want everyone to feel part of the group and its activities.
You do and say things to spare people the misery of rejection and loneliness. Once someone
joins your circle, you identify the talents that make this person so very special. By nature, you
find a way to involve everyone so each person has a good experience. You strive to create a
sense of belonging and acceptance. When someone feels left out, you often are the person
who finds a way to engage that individual in the group’s activities and conversations.
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Shared Theme Description
People who are especially talented in the Command theme have presence. They can take
control of a situation and make decisions.
Your Personalized Strengths Insights
What makes you stand out?
Driven by your talents, you sometimes feel comfortable sharing your original ideas with
groups. Perhaps they welcome your innovations. Maybe they realize you suggest novel ways
of doing things they would never have considered. Chances are good that you sometimes
insist that you need to work by yourself. You may reject being too closely supervised.
Perhaps as a child you insisted on having your own space and being independent. Because of
your strengths, you occasionally vied for the top ranking in contests or games as a child. You
might remember a few instances of being unusually self-sufficient, assertive, or bold.
Instinctively, you are known for being realistic and unsentimental. Nonetheless, there are
times when you wish you did a better job of expressing your own feelings and allowing
others to voice theirs. The moment people start getting too emotional, you tend to redirect
their attention to practical matters or objective facts. It’s very likely that you commonly
influence people to produce results, sign up to work on projects, or rally around causes. When
you take time to know them as individuals, many people are willing to move into action at
your prompting. They are apt to realize you appreciate their special qualities, talents,
interests, or experiences.
Input
Shared Theme Description
People who are especially talented in the Input theme have a craving to know more. Often
they like to collect and archive all kinds of information.
Your Personalized Strengths Insights
What makes you stand out?
Because of your strengths, you genuinely feel better about life when you can take the mystery
out of complicated procedures. Often you outline in detail the steps to understand exactly
what is happening and why. It’s very likely that you comprehend what has gone wrong.
Eagerly, you uncover facts. Sorting through lots of information rarely intimidates you. You
welcome the abundance of information. Like a detective, you sort through it and identify key
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01/23/2011pieces of evidence. Following these leads, you bring the big picture into view. Next, you
generate schemes for solving the problem. Finally, you choose the best option after
considering prevailing circumstances, available resources, and desired outcomes.
Instinctively, you can simplify the most complex, convoluted, or intricate procedure. People
usually rely on you to offer clear and easy-to-comprehend explanations. Driven by your
talents, you enjoy sharing ideas, exchanging information, and trading stories. During
conversations, you usually are the person who simplifies complicated details. You can help
individuals understand intricate procedures, theories, regulations, or plans. Chances are good
that you customarily figure out what makes each person special. You talk to, observe, or
study individuals who produce nothing less than excellence to identify what inspires them.
Unquestionably, you prefer to associate with those who share your passion for taking
something good and making it better. Once you understand what drives a person, you can
motivate him or her to transform whatever was made better into something utterly superb.
Responsibility
Shared Theme Description
People who are especially talented in the Responsibility theme take psychological ownership
of what they say they will do. They are committed to stable values such as honesty and
loyalty.
Your Personalized Strengths Insights
What makes you stand out?
Driven by your talents, you choose your friends with care and caution. Like you, these
individuals have a reputation for honoring their commitments. Like you, they do exactly what
they say they will do. Your most enduring friendships are built on a foundation of mutual
trust. Instinctively, you have a strong sense of commitment. It motivates you to make sure
that things are carried through to completion even when difficulties arise. Chances are good
that you sometimes volunteer to do things rather than wait to be asked to assume more duties.
By nature, you ordinarily feel very good about yourself and life in general when you keep all
the promises you have made to yourself and others. Because of your strengths, you may wish
to have a broader range of control and accountability on the job or in your personal life.
Individualization
Shared Theme Description
People who are especially talented in the Individualization theme are intrigued with the
unique qualities of each person. They have a gift for figuring out how people who are
different can work together productively.
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01/23/2011Your Personalized Strengths Insights
What makes you stand out?
Chances are good that you occasionally figure out what factors caused someone to behave in
a certain way. Once in a while, you present evidence that explains why a particular event
occurred. Perhaps some people rely on you to help them find reasonable explanations. Driven
by your talents, you sometimes like to participate in meetings with individuals who are trying
to set their goals. Maybe you ask questions or make suggestions that help them clearly define
their objectives. Without your intervention, some people might flounder as they attempt to
identify their performance targets. Instinctively, you are keenly aware of people’s unique
traits. You notice characteristics that distinguish each person from everyone else. By nature,
you sometimes rely on reason to determine how an event, decision, or condition led to a
specific event. Perhaps you desire to understand how things converge to produce the final
result. It’s very likely that you distinguish the fine points of each person’s contribution to a
conversation. You guide the exchange of information by drawing out the singular
perspectives of everyone involved. You help individuals bring forth their varied, peculiar,
eccentric, quaint, or unusual viewpoints. By honoring the uniqueness of each human being,
you enliven many dialogues.
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100 Hates about the Class

2010-12-10T03:07:00.000-08:00

1 The class not bonded
2 The class got cliques
3 The cliques do not get along
4 The class is not active
5 The class is lazy
6 The class is not high
7 The whole class cannot come on time
8 always got late people
9 always got ppl never going lec
10 always got ppl never go tut
11 never study
12 dun like to study
13 like to complain
14 like to cheat
15 are dishonest
16 are not friendly
17 are self centered
18 are fierce
19 always think they are right
20 brats
21 spoil t brats
22 cannot get along with HQ
23 cannot get along with e
24 cannot get along with a
25 cannot get along with ec
26 cannot really click..
27 guailan
28 not independent
29 LATE
30 no leadership
31 no opinions
32 cannot think
33 always want the best
34 never think for the rest
35 cannot work tgt
36 childish
37 make fun of others
38 evil
39 no moral values
40 always blame ppl
41 always shoot ppl
42 f..k up attitude
43 not sporty
44 dun listen in class
45 talk in class
46 sms in class
47 gossip in class
48 always sit with group
49 always the same groups
50 always group with known frens
51 thinks they can get wad they want
52 selfish
53 inconsiderable
54 not good in this and that
55 keep asking ppl this and that
56 cannot check their timetable
57 anti-social
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will update too tired to think....

Happy Day

2010-12-10T02:54:00.000-08:00

It started on Thursday(9/12/10)
At seven or maybe eight(in the morning)
You crashed into my world with a boom

U was standing there
I turn around and saw u
U were all alone and u
look back at me

U giggle a bit
i find it weird
but u felt familar
so i didnt bother so much

I walk past u
i took a detour
i alighted
and u was just right behind me
it was so funny

went to the exit point
my card didnt work at first
u almost knocked into me
I turn around again
u was just behind

i was smiling
and feeling weird
but it was funny
it was so interesting.
u turn out right
i went out straight
and u were gone...

The school was okay. Pretty slack
and shagged

Was super tired after lab
but got full marks

Went home late.
had dinner
went to play FuzionBAll

I become a coach
i met new frens
I met a tennis coach
Well it was fun .
Words cannot describe it
Play till so late

This morning too shagged
go to school early
walk to mac and eat.

Went to Club room and chat
made a new fren called en yi and sharon
Well it was fun
went to class late
didnt focus in class
after class went with frens
then go back school briefing
teach ZX maths
Chatted with ting rui and ka yui
answer shirley and tiffany

Then went home
and fell asleep
had dinner
then blogging later going to sleep again
pack my NO 3
change my phone....
wake up early tmr .....

Recent updrama

2010-11-20T01:32:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging for a while.
Well , lot of things had happened lately but thanks goodness all is coming to an end.
Well, more things had ended abruptly but well some with a good cause other well what can i say. New friendship was forged and made. This is now a need for me to maintain those friendship i want and those that i do not want. NCC is an organization that i try my best not to be tied into. The organization is pretty mess up right now.

Well, this are friendship that i must maintain and keep for the rest of my life. Friendship with Ivy,Clement,WenYi,Binglin,SinMiao,Christopher,ChenYang,Wilson,MeiJin,JingWen,ChengEe,Cheryl. These are friends that i do not want to lose, they are those whom i feel family with. Bond that will not faded or disappear. Even with minimum contact, the bond is still strong. These are my most treasured possession. Well , i do have many friends but friends that become buddys for life are not many.

You do hang out with different friends daily, making new friends and all that. Some friendship become mild when a rare portion of it become strong.

Well there are also friendship that you want to maintain and keep for live. For me, Friendship made in camps and events are those i wish to keep. Like my red campers friends, CSC camp group ,TingRui,GinaTan,kelyn and bingyang, YOG group especially my JieJies Melissa,YuYing,Wang Fei and Tiwi , well , my sec 1 classes ,ZhengZhou friends,hongWen friendships my juniors and my student council frens.

Well, some friendship nothing what happen, it will never go strong , it will be on and off. Friend ship with my poly class has always been like this, well , Sec 3 and 4 are similar too. No matter what happen it will not work out. They may still be fren but pretty much on the surface....

Well, Friendship are for life for some , others not. It is best to choose wisely.

Back to poly life. I need to get my spirit up and kicking. I need to study hard and maintain my activities as well. I am falling behind and i need to start catching up if not it might be like falling off a trend mill when u cannot maintain speed.Well that is for studies side.

As for romance and friendship, well friendship been fun especially the new one i made. Well, still waiting to go and buy my horoscope book looking for people to pei me do some shopping haha. Well, romance has not not smooth so far. It seems so near yet so far.

Well, yesterday had one hell of a time. Went to school as normal. Then got CCN day, grab cookies from the clubroom and task my class to sell it. Well, it went well i guess. Then come the tiring event, street soccer with classmates and their frens. Wow it was super tiring,the heat was far too torturing for us.

I went home at 4 plus, went to east gate and saw ZX , then boarded my bus. I was tired so i was resting on the second floor of the bus, making myself cool down. Finally about to reach my stop, i went down to the exit area. To my astonishment, i saw Ivy who was sitting there alone. I chatted with her and then we alighted . however, Ivy stop at the wrong stop. Hence we walk down to the next bus stop. Well, there was a short cut which was pretty dangerous so we took a big turn. Well, for the first time was alone with her for pretty much a long time. We had a good time i think. We took a big turn and arrived at the bus stop. If that was not the bus stop she would have cab or i would bring her across to another bus stop. I didnt want her to tire out or waste money . YOKATTA , there was a bus to her place and i waited for her to leave first then i went home. On the way to the bus stop,i gave her a packet of cookies^^. Then we sms till she was busy.

Reach home, charge my phone for a while, then help my mum ran errands then i use our oversea phone to sms ivy . then was back but without the stuff. Then i took my phone and went to bugis to meet my classmate, we had steamboat tgt and boy did we eat till we drop. I went popular to search still cannot find then i went to buy hamster stuff then meet up with frens again then went bookstore but didnt see the book i wanted. Then went home.

Well, i wonder will feelings get stronger for me till i cannot control . Wad ever will happen, it is for fate,affinity and time to tell.
well <3
sometimes the person u like or love is happy , u can be happy to even if she was not in a r/s with you ^^
it took a while to actually feel that way

Long Update

2010-11-16T20:00:00.000-08:00

Well it been months since i last blog.
Well, a lot has change and it is getting out of hand.
School is okay and was okay.

But on the start on the next sem , the last day of the week . Something happen and it carried on till cannot hold back. I started to sms sun bear . Then during a conversation with my frens , i came to be interested in the gal they were talking about. Second week, i went , saw and feel polar bear familiar . Wed my jap class, she was my class, went to talk to her, blah blah , later that night got her number then start sms. Then second week saw dance bear, become prettier than sms her . Then saw pooh bear then sms again . Then get out of hand blah blah.

Sun bear got back with her bf ^^
dance bear got back with her life ^^
pooh bear enjoying her life
became great fren with polar bear

Gosh a lot going on but dun know how to say . Pile up till cannot say anything much. first time thinking verbally say is better than writing.
argh sian

2010-11-14T05:24:00.000-08:00

This is my horoscope with Cheng Ee

Capricorn + Virgo

Earth + Earth = Solid Ground

A partnership between Capricorn and Virgo, two earth signs, is a no-brainer. You’ll definitely have an immediate rapport with Virgo, and they won’t find you as serious as other signs do. A combination of the same elements is always a great foundation for a relationship.

Both of you are down to earth straight shooters; that’s the earth quality shining through. Virgo will focus on offering you clear and practical service, as Virgos do. You, being a Capricorn, will focus on success.

Although you are basically both economical and sensible, Virgo is more upbeat. They will lift your energy, and make you feel refreshed, youthful and responsive. Virgo also brings out your mischievous and fun-loving side; your ambition and seriousness could take a bit of a back seat.

Both of you will work towards material goals, but when you’re with each other you’ll be quite prepared to bring down walls of convention that would ordinarily be an obstruction to a deeper relationship.

Virgo is usually extremely picky, and preoccupied with the detail of everything. Because you’re reasonably methodical, and very engaged with the process of becoming successful, they won’t be too critical of how you do your work.

The result of this is that you’ll then trust them and feel confident that you can do any job to their satisfaction. This feeling of trust will set your more sensitive and loving side free.

You’ll find it easy to express your love with Virgo. But it will always be against the background of your need for long-term security and comfort. And Virgo will give this to you in full.

Virgos born between 24 August and 2 September could be spiritually connected to you as mentors. They could help you decide the direction in which your life develops, and they could have a strong influence over your higher learning. They could be teachers, advisers or lawyers. You may meet them in the course of your work or studies.

If you’re looking for love, Virgos born between 3 September and 12 September are superbly aligned with you. Both of you have the vibrations of Capricorn and Saturn, which also co-rule their Sun sign. You’ll have plenty to look forward to in a relationship with these people.

There will be good vibrations between you with Virgos born between 13 September and 22 September. Venus has a strong influence on them, and rules your zone of love, pleasure and entertainment.

REcent updates

2010-10-06T21:00:00.000-07:00

Well, one fine Monday. I wasted 2 hours of my time to attend a ridiculous IFM sub comm meeting. It was really a waste of my time. It took about 1 hr 15 min for me to get there and get back. So 45 mins was spend on waiting for the meeting to start and the actual meeting. Well, the turn wad was not great but was average. However the people quality of leadership was way different. Wonder what level are theirs when i work with them.

As a leader, as one may climb higher and higher above. He/she loses friendship( close ). Those that he/she have is her family and love ones plus some really good friends. Being a good leader, means he has followers(so called frens) But they do not really go out or what so ever. All they do is related to the task they are given.

From the meeting, wad they did was select a class ic and ask us for opinions on stuff. Well, it was a waste of a time. The class ic aka phone ic can be selected easily or just randomly pick someone to train their communication skills. WHy bother to ask the people who be the phone ic. Then giving suggestion to what kind of outings can the cohort has. Asking everyone in their faces. IN front of all the unfamiliar strangers . Who will dare voice out their thoughts. I wouldnt. Then tell us some events and ask for volunteers then give us time to reply them.

IF i was the one leading. I would email out the events to the subcomm. I will appoint the phone ic and the sub comm ic. I will email the subcomm to ask for suggestion on other outings. If i want to have a sub comm meeting. The first time i will do is break the ice from my years of experiences. I got lots of ideas. Be it a beach carnival, Volunteering , create a outreach pro gramme so be it. IFM club , i expected too much from it. It only give me that bit. I will get into the main comm and restructured it.

Well back to life. Tomorrow will be going to school to give the forms required for the CSC camp. SO i am hoping to go out with frens tomorrow. So it will not be going out just to give a form and back. Wonder will i be able to make a outing possible in just a few hours time. Looking forward to the release of the CDS selection. I hope to get CCS hehe. Got CADS exam on the first week looking forward to it too^^

Memoirs

2010-10-03T19:09:00.000-07:00

Been so long since i blog. Got to hurry with my writing speed cause later i got a meeting which is at 12 at school so i have to leave early. Hope i can finish it in time.

Well, it is not time to be selfish already. Not going to keep writing about myself and my boring life unless it is interesting and a good memory. Had a good chat with YaQi from ZhengZhou yesterday. She changed a lot. It has been 2 years since any of us has met. I am looking forward to visiting them at ZhengZhou soon. They are looking forward to it too. Hope i can go there ^^

Well, back to the recent news. Our dearest role model Mdm Kwa Geok Choo, wife on MM Lee pass on saturday 2 oct at 540 pm peacefully at her home. Let has a minute of silence for her. She contributed a lot for Singapore not in the limelight but behind the scenes. Youths and young children, if you want to know more about her. DO read the articles and the newspaper. For me, i was reading up on her on TODAY newspaper the one for 4 oct which is today. I was aware of her that much. Maybe i was still young and not sensible. However, reading about her was an honor. TO see how much one can contribute. All our older generation memories of her from local or from far.

Let pray for her and her family. May she rest in peace and her family can live on happily with her in their hearts.Amen

This set me thinking. All of us will eventually pass on. However what memories do you want people to remember you. Like Doctor GOh?, Mrs Lee? Dr Balaji ? or some unknown person. Do you want to contribute and live life to the fullest? Or just live in your own world and living selfishly. I want to make a differences in others life too. I have a few inspiring friends , youthful but with a great heart. HuiYi, Edmund , Rasyid , Royston, Jing Kai and a few more. These are my good friend even though we may not see each other that often. But feel so comfortable with them. They are fellow leaders in their own life ,their schools and role model. I used to be like that in primary and secondary. Wonder if i can do that for my poly life as well.

It is harder as i am sort of still fresh to the school and people. I look forward to that day when i made a difference. I hope the CSC main com will allow people from the club to be able to register and participate easier than the present system. I hope i am in for the camp. But the passing down of information is just so messy and confusing. THere is no updates or what so ever. How can one contribute with such a confusing leadership.

Well, hope to contribute a lot to CSC and IFM club(FDM club)

NOt at all

2010-09-26T20:48:00.000-07:00

Recently, i got this feeling. That all the bonds of YOG are going to disappear from our daily life. All the friendship and all the sweet memories. Everyone is integrating back to their own life, their own path , their own future. All, we can do now, is keep contacting each other in times to times. However as times goes, it get harder and harder to start a conversation and ending one. Topics become dry and it can hardly can any life to it as truly, we know only a few facts about the new friends and shared memories are so little compare to our own with other people.

Poly friends meet almost everyday in school during the school term. This daily encounter should have brought a small and simple friendship into a fun and enjoying one where friends bond so well, that they do almost everything together. However, i feel this is not the case for me. Even though i see them regularly, but it doesn't click. I just don't. Maybe our goals are different, maybe our views are. Maybe i am just a fool pursuing a good education and just seeking good friends plus maybe my other half will be good. Where other may just want life to just flow and seek happiness and fun daily and then full of regrets after. Life is full of Regrets.

Love is such a interesting feeling. Well, Like is another interesting feeling. From a 2 sided like can become love. OR NOT. Sibling love , parent love , the warmth of friendship and then the love of your life ,your other half. However loving someone is different from liking someone for my view. liking someone may only be of a certain period which loving someone means a life time commitment. Liking can go with the times. I like this I like that. However if you love something or someone, you feel it cannot be change, it sticks with you for life time.

Well, now in my life. Maybe i had love JiaEn when i was super young. Then maybe had a crush on SzeLing in p4. Then maybe my first relationship with Priscilla in sec4. Well, i had this weird feeling in primary school. I do like all the girls that i am friends with, maybe they too have the same feeling but when a feeling with another girl is different, People and i then to feel that is love. However, i was wrong. Well,i didnt really have a crush with SzeLing. It was just infatuation with a full day encounter at a difficult course causing physically contact. Well, i still miss JiaEn, We lost contact since young, will not expect she to remember me. We both had change in term of look and size so maybe we may had brushed past we will not know for sure. I still remember the times we spent and i do miss her. MY first relationship was a nightmare. I took the wrong step and it carried on to the stage of no return. Well, that was not love, I pitied her and took it as love . Well, i was wrong. So i ended it quick and do not want to remember it.

Well, maybe when i say i love Yiseul. I do not know why. Who knows am i attracted to her body? well,i guess i was attracted to her due to a unknown feeling? I feel close to her even though we just met not long. Well, it was just maybe my imagination. She is a busy girl and a lovely one. Just hope she find a nice guy. Now slowly i am getting to understand guy sexually attracted to some gals and the other way too. Well, guess these is just unwanted feeling from both gender. It is something that you do not knowingly. For me, girls who have long hair and is wearing a tee shirt with shorts attract my eyes. Haha, i thinking is this my preference?

Well, i got one thing that i keep close to my heart. On sec 3 on my birthday, i received a anonymous letter. Well, it might be a prank but it was a happy thing for me. Well, it was a confession letter but i do not know it is by who. cuttiegurlzx* was her written name. I wish i could know her. Even if we cannot be together, she could have been my best friend and who knows maybe in the future we can be together. This is the letter i will read when i am really down or when i need someone and there is noone for me. The last sentence is touching. i will alwayys b there for euu. well, she may not be with me but this sentence warms my heart and make me go on. since it has been 2 years going 3 years. I wish that i will see her when i turn 18 next year. I really want to know her. Even though it may be a prank or what i want to thank her.

Well, just like i stated before, if she really love me, that feeling will never be gone but if she only like me then she may not remember this letter or me. Well, i hope if she really lurbb me, she will appear and b there for me.

class chalet of TP W1004

2010-09-21T20:40:00.000-07:00

This is my side of my story of the epic class chalet.
Went out at 12 plus reach white sands at 1235. Late for the actual meeting time. Well, YeeChing and Jaclyn was later than me by 2 minutes.I guess we were on the same train.

Then we(ZX,Fanny,YC,Jac,SZ,SN and Gina) went to find something to eat. Settle down in a small area, We were squeezing into the seats, well, it was pretty small place. Then we ate Some Jap food. I took some sushi. Then we wanted to walk to ehub but it started raining instead. So we figured out that why not go and take the shuttlebus so we went to the waiting point. Insecure as there was no sign or evidence that it was the waiting point, we use ZX handy dandy Iphone to check and we called the hotline. After that we decided to take bus 3 as the waiting time for the next shuttle bus was 40 mins.

We run across the road to the opposite side and waited for a while. Bus 3 came, to our surprised we saw Chit Min. After 2 stops, we reached downtown and saw Eccles waiting at the bus stop. Then we all went to ehub, went up becos ZX says the NTUC was upstairs but it was downstairs. We went down and went to grab some things for the chalet. Brought charcoal,drinks,jelly powder and instant noodles. After which we started walking to aloha loyang. IT was exhausting due to the loads we were carrying. We reach in 20 mins or less and settle down outside the chalet. We were uncertain with which was ours as some say D,E,F,G i though it was E cos i remember i place down E on the FB page. Well, it doesnt matters as we didnt have the key and we have yet to book in.

We sat there, chatting. Waited for quite some time then ISa came with the key. He told me lot of stuff and then he left with fiona plus eccles plus peng fang to grab some stuff. The rest of us stay in the living room and they were playing and chatting. I was arranging the kitchen and un packing our stuff. I wanted to join in but then the bbq stuff came in and i received the order. Again, i place the stuff in the kitchen. Then sat down and play a while. THen Yienn call me and ask me to fetch him. I borrowed Eccles bike and went to find him. The bike was pretty hard to use for me. nothing happen luckily, then we went back to the chalet and we tried to start fire.

The first group of us was fanny,yienn, pengfang, zaixuan and me. We tried starting the fire but to our despair,it just will not catch fire. after wasting a lot of fire starters, PF,ZX and me who were looking after the pit left. After 30 mins, we came out and saw the fire has not started and fanny was redoing it. It was nearing an hour since we started it.after realigning we started it agin. Now was group 2, ZX,PF,YE,me and Fanny plus CP and eccles. Well the flame was starting and we try putting the food on. Then the flame was gone. :@ THen we were angry and CP decide we should cook as the bbq was going to fail. Then in the kitchen cooking and helping out was me, shiqi,ainey,nadhirah,eccles,PF and YE. WE managed to cook satay , hotdogs, crabstick and mebo, corn and sweet potato. Outside at the pit trying to start fire was amelia,huiqi,cihui and fiona. LAst group.THe rest of us was eating some stuff.

it was 9 plus it has been 3 hours, our neighbour who started later had finish eating and wanted to offer help. BUt FIona rejected it. They were still trying then after a while cihui got the fire going and the neighbour donated there heated charcoal and we were on the way. ZX was cooking now, be it satay mashmallow and chicken wings.The rest of us was cutting the cake for HQ and CM.THen some of us were drinking. Fiona, Jac and YC were on the verge of getting drunk. EMorine, YE,Gina and Chitmin was turning red. I was going a bit high. THen Fanny stop Fiona fiona and the rest from drinking.

Fiona was screaming here and there. Wad a epic scene then We decide to pour the rest of the Vodka into the root beer bottle and hid it.She went for her breezer and drank. SHe place it at the pit where YE and i was cooking then YE grab the bottle and drank some for her so she will not get drunk. After a while we were cleaning up and stuff. THen all of us gathered into the boys room to watch some epic movie then after a while stop and left for a walk in the park. Fiona take a short nap and when we were exiting the chalet she puked. AFter that we went out and went for a walk. Walk to downtown , went 7 eleven grab something and went to the some shop with a swing and PF and CM grab some stuff to eat.

Fanny was about to leave , her BF is going oversea so she had to pei him. HEr BF came to fetch her. THe rest of us walked back to the chalet.There was nothing to do. some of us went to the girls room and chatted and played the night away. While i was trying to grab some sleep where eccles was sleeping soundly. cannot sleep as i can hear lots of conversation. Horny ones, funny one, stupid ones, u name it i can hear it.THen came out and watch ooz it was about 6 plus. PLayed some battlefield and then went to eat mac with jac, PF,Gina , emorine at 7 plus. Went and waited for huiqi then grab a bite upon finishing and buying for fiona she came, then me and pf went NTUC to buy meepo dry. Then we all met up at outsied mac and walk back. Then me and PF try to sleep while ZX,Ecc and the gals were in another room. I couldnt sleep and did nothing much.

Waited till near 1 for yienn. play plants vs zombie for a while then left. ME,eccles,PF and YE went to rent bike cycle to the fish farm. we all went fishing and it was pretty fun. All of us was very alive and young haha. THen grab drinks and ice cream. the cycle team went and cycle to the end of the park to the rental to return the bike and walk back to ehub to meet fiona and ZX. I was so soft i could move for a while. Then drank some bubble tea and walk to central to grab dinner.

After eating went to a shop and shop for stuff. THen Zx went home the rest of us cycle or cab back.Then we were clearing up and cooking one last feast then we ate it.Then we will clearing up then booked out and left. The feast was fun. only the 5 of us. THen ecc and yienn burn stuff then we did not want. then Joanne came to take her wallet. THen we all went our own ways. I went home and help me mum finish her goods and slept.

IT was a epic fail chalet. NO NIGHT CYCLE, NO Manjong, NO SWIMMING, NO BBQ , NO SEEING sUn SET and rise

USS and the unknown

2010-09-19T17:58:00.000-07:00

Well, Friday night was awesome.
I went to Universal Studio with Tiwi JieJIe , melissa JieJIe , Ian and Wil.
Well that day was full of fives. We was team 5 and we got only five people who attend. Went for 5 rides and on the fifth day of the week . Haha awesome.
Well, pics do speak loudly than words

Start of the trip. The first pic of my friends

Group photo with someone

Group photo with another

Acting nerds

Posing in front of a restaurant

Posing in front of the globe

Acting Donkey

The five potions which represent the five of us

Frens forever

IN front of mummies

Posing and nearly falling

IN front of far far away

The castle

At lost world

Changing the world

2010-09-15T19:58:00.000-07:00

Hmm,this is it.

So sick of the people polluting the world , killing each other and violence. I guess one day those movies which depicts world end will happen one day. So is the movies message? Is it that there will be one hero and his friend will live( Bullshit) or is that to fight till the last breath(bullshit) None of the people take it seriously no wonder there is more and more of such movies that people do think it as a joke nothing else.

Movies are going out of hand. What with 3D adult films( WTH) now can see porn live? wad the. Hopefully singapore will not import such movies but there are bound to be people seeing it online or going through illegal sources. What else could be new. 4D adults film? cannot imagine what sick people are thinking about. Many people are falling into the wrong path because of stupid influence.

People tend to see their own world in some others view , getting the reality from movies and videos. Then, they go out and starts behaving like that. They never see the real world the real and innocent world instead of such violent and fantasy world. The world we see now is so different from the past.

Well, some humans should just create these laws. To have all electrical appliances to be 4 ticks and above in energy saving. All the small companies be absorb in the major brands. Prices of this appliances should be lower. No more toxic material use only natural stuff. Wow such a impactful sentence can create such a powerful effect but the world see it as a stupid thing. A not possible thing. What they want is to earn money. Then come in greed. who knows to wad extend do we see wad greed can do. Totally change a person, killing . what is next?

In papers, we see so many terrible crimes, so many things. But what can we do. The world just...

Forget about it

Weirdness in the day

2010-09-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

After the frustrating early morning Sunday, i took out my REBUS notes and started to study. Reading through the revision notes and doing it , wow i find it easy to be stored in my head. I finish the practice and i went and played with my bro in CS. It was night time. I went to watch the 730 channel u drama DEVIL's students. The show ended. I went to my room with my brother and i started to read through the whole of the REBUS lectures just in case. Then i went to sleep.

That was a night to be forgotten. I couldnt get into sleep and i was tossing around. Well managed to sleep for a while and woke up to prepared my exam. I left home at 704 then reach school at 750. To my horror, sitting at a table was FIONA. She was always late but seeing her earlier than me was a great shock. She was meeting Isa to study. Settle down and chat. Then our CP came and continue chatting about the chalet. It was soon the time for our exam hence we proceed to the venue.

Took our my YOG hoodie jacket and stuff then went to wait in my seat. Was so nervous. When we were allowed to see the questions, i found all the questions doable hence i left down my guard. I was so cold that i could not write neatly. The answers was in a mess OMG. Haiz, to me, it was a terrible paper. Well completed it in a while then rest and did stupid things. Making funny noises drawing on the question paper.

The paper ended and everyone said wad an easy paper haha, so i thought these paper will not make much of a diff to the scores.Then i notices i did one part wrongly but it was over. Look like my calculation for this month a bit off. After the paper the 11 of us went to BBQ chicken for lunch(pengfang,chitmin,zaixuan,fiona,gina,jaclyn,yeeching,fanny,emorine,sizheng)

Peng fang left after the meal. SiZheng who look very stress before the meal went to get lunch for family. She look okay after the meal so i better dun ask her why she looked so stress. Chit Min went home too. So the rest of us went to bugis. Well, even though there was company, it was still boring and lonely. THey were not high people so i went home in a while.

Thinking back, i heard the new train is coming song maybe it has been there but hearing for the first time send me annoyed. Well it was a good way to inform people but it is irritating in the long run.They should play the song to the tunes of the festivals or event so it will not always be the same but always fresh and interesting.

Well, Friday is coming. Going to catch up with my YOG frens^^ Maybe in the morning i might go and prepared stuff for my Chalet on next monday hehe.

I wonder who i missed out in my siblings corner >

frustrating

2010-09-11T22:12:00.001-07:00

IT has been so long since i blog. My feelings stored in me is going to explode.Today i almost lost it. I was on the edge of anger and i was showing it well.

IT been a while since i blog so i cannot remember all that has happen. But i remember clearly that on one morning at 1016 i saw a spirit. NO JOKE here. I was lying on my bed well preparing to take a nap again. I saw my brother using his com at the door gap. Then i saw someone or something walk past and was standing in front of my door and behind my brother. IT look in and shake its head as thought showing a sigh that i was still sleeping. So i was curious who was that so i came out and ask my brother.

I look around my house and found there was no one except me and my brother, so i questioned my brother then he said there is no one. TO my shock, i think i saw a spirit.However up to now, i haven seen it yet. At night i tend to be afraid as i wonder if it will come and look at me again.

Well, that was one of the major things that happen. I caught up with some of my best frens who are in JC and we are set to meet in the dec holiday while i dun have, i do my best to fix up dates for them ^^. All these while, i had been having sweet dreams both fun and interesting. MAke me really do not want to wake up to reality as i always se my best frens in my dreams. Even though now things may have change.

Sadly tomorrow is my REBUS paper and i have yet to study for it. BEen busy for the week helping my mum to rush her goods. SO maybe even if i do not know how to do tomorrow paper i would not care le. I just hated a study week before exams so thrash the mood. Just hope i can pass my REBUs paper it will be good to have at least 80 but with low hopes and chances.

Well, this coming friday will be the day i am looking to spend quality time with my YOG frens. I so love them. My jie JIes esp. ^^ Even though i may not have all the known paper with me on that day. But i will have fun with them though. I hope YuYing Jiejie can have fun too hope ur bonds will be re ignited ^^.

My new goal will be getting a blackberry type phone and a personal DSLR camera ^^

Why i today was on the brink of anger here is why. Wake up and receive a call from my mother asking me to go have practice. I settle my breakfast and left. I was injured and my leg was burning but i push on. The losing match build up to my anger. At last there was this match where a guy which i dun like smash the ball into me and didnt apologized i was pissed. I could let it go and decide to get revenge but i could get my revenge which make me more agitated and i had enough i went to find my phone. I could find my phone as someone make the stuff messy. i was so angry finally found the phone i sat there started to sms and i walk home.

Hated the sunday morning. My brother was not there :(

LeIMen-Ray

Emotions

2010-09-06T19:32:00.000-07:00

Been a while since i have blogged.
Well,the weekend was as normal. Boring but it was not too bad.My brother and i helped my mother finish her goods by Saturday night. I played Dragonica with my brother for the whole of Sunday afternoon. In the morning had fusionball. Then at night watched shows. Had to say this, studying for maths was like torture to me.

It was monday already, in a few hours time was the exam. Due to high expectations of maintaining an A hit my head. It was causing so much emotions in my head. Scared of failure, nervous, anxious and fear. I stoned at home for a while then i decided to go out. I had such low esteem that i was afraid of how the public would look at me. I avoided eye contract and seems to be in my own world. I do think that bystander can actually see the emotions through my faces and eyes. For a moment i felt like crying but i was not able to cry. Unless my other half appeared. i was so close to tears but i freshen up and look around to see if the other half was there. But to no avail???

Reached school and i was alone, not wanting to be seen. I chiong to a remote place which was outside my school HCDE lab. The concourse was filled with so many people. I was breaking out in cold sweat. I sat on the bench not knowing wad to do hence i sms Wang Fei JieJIe and YuYing JieJIe^^ . Since YuYing Jiejie was still in lesson. I sms with Wang Fei Jiejie who was havign lunch. she did help to forget the state i was in. Thanks for being by my side^^ So good to have JieJIe Thank YOG.

My friends came and i stop smsing. Chatted with my friends Nah didnt at all. still enclosed in my own world. Then it was the math paper. Was stumped by the last 2 question which packed the punch it costed 8% of my overall. At the end of the paper found i got careless due to lack of focus. Lost another 4% overall. Now my GPA might be only B+ for math 3.5? will it pulled me down? I was so close to a A a mere 2 %.

I took bus to tamp interchange with a bunch of friends. I didnt talk all the way i was thinking back. I chatted again with YuYing JieJIe and Wang Fei JieJIe. Even thought mention the math paper, i could cry and feel so depressed but they didnt know that wad they was doing was consoling me. THey didnt notice that their sms did cheer me up a bit and then bits by bits. My facial expression was getting from worst to a better state. Thanks JieJIe^^ I was so down in the train that i didnt notice others were looking at me as if concern what was happening to me haha.

Well, went home, Since it is a bye bye to math1 i didnt care about it le. I went and played with my brother again.That did cheer me up too. My JieJie and my borther^^ what else can i hope for. A biological JieJIe? haha

Had a good night sleep, the dreams was so good that i didnt want to wake up. At first i was a kamen rider then i was fighting with the real kamen rider. Hahas then i was with my poly frens when my friend was giving out her wedding invites and i was giving mine. i look at the name it was anne something. Haha so weird. Then i was with my primary school frens. MeiJIn,guiYuan was two of which i remember cos i was treating them to a meal, the MeiJin(meimei in real life) was ordering more then i was Papa to her in the dream.Then was at our seats where we chatted with Gui Yuan. Today is GuiYuan birthday^^ what could be better.

Woke up and was back in my life, open my mails and saw there was going to be Primary school outing cool. my bro and sis was going so i decide to go as well^^ So missed my primary school frens.

On the facebook, i saw my junior class video of 4e2, it was very nice, it brought back memories of my secondary school class as well my 4e2 2009 and 3e2 2008. We was the top 2 of the best class spirit award but lost to sec5 due to them having more moments. In sec4 we did a super nice video but was not posted as we handed in late? But we did ask for extension and he gave us his words. Feel that 2009 class Video definably will not have won if faced with our class video as my friends from the winning class saw our video and the find it the nicest and is very touching too.

YuYing JieJIe want to see my class video here is the link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqE8bdfhmqs

Emotions
LeIMen-Ray

Wht can i do

2010-09-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

Well, yesterday saw Jack with his job lobang.
Wait for so long, should have felt pissed and left then would not have wasted my 2 hours.Well, went to NP and sat there again wasted time,it just sucks to see time fly without doing anything. Than the jack friend come, for sure i saw him before. IT was one year ago, i was with Ben and he was having some talk about some bars. Then Ben told me it was a scam so i believe in my friend and left.

Now facing the same guy again,i felt irritated but decided to play along which i should not if i wanted to save time. He was talking about the bars again this time a few changes but still is not convincing to me.It is from SAB Esabee. Some company who sell beauty products. Say everyone can rich. Than every supply,trading,selling products should use this method but they do not. There is such a high risk that other companies do not take. It is like u buy the product from ur fren then u are supposed to find another 5 then continue the cycle will never end. It just sucks.

I hope my friends dun get involved in cheap labour, live life the way u love it. Do not be greedy but wealth. Wealth cannot give you everything.

Well, forget about the unhappy stuff. Well ,had a good night. I dream about YOG, my JieJIe men was all in it. I was so happy even though it was just a dream.

LeIMen-Ray

Today and YEsterday

2010-09-02T18:04:00.000-07:00

Well, didnt manage to study at all again at the Bugis Starbuck, there i was ,sitting there staring into space. I just cannot concentrate yesterday, no focus on what everything i was supposed to be doing. Well, Fiona come at 12 pm instead of the pre plan 11 while at 1 peng fang arrived. While after 1 i continue to stone for another hour or so.

Then that was it, we went off, Fiona went into some shops then we went to Suntec city. This was a crowd but not not big. We went to have lunch at Aston. The vice manager again was rude and not professional whereas the manager was again smiling and giving good service. Well,it was not a very pleasant dining but we still offer tips.

I wish i had a D-SLR camera then i could just take pics and show it on the blog as pics talk louder than words and i like to take nice pictures. After Lunch went to the comex show.We walk for 3 hours. Fiona brought blackberry blingbling casing,kepboard protector, ear piece and a hard drive. Peng Fang couldnt find his ram. I brought my MP3 player,Creative Zen Xi-Fi Style,(if got D-SLR camera,i would just post pics of it)

Well it was busy and tiring after all the walk then we ended the comex tour by visting JOanne, a classmate of ours and we were chatting a while not long as we did not want to affect her work. Then i receive a sms from JAck ,saying he got a job lobang.SO i am supposed to meet him at 430 clementi later.

After the walk at Suntec city, we walk to cityhall and boy it was packed, we took the green line home. Went to my fusionball practice, boring ... THen after the thing end,went home and put songs and charge my MP3, i using it for a while now, i quite like it.

Well, wake up early this morning to prepare for school. Charge my MP3 again and did my normal stuff.HAd breakfast then went to school.Had REBUS revision,she went through a lot and told us how we fare for the continuous assessment. i got 85.5% which was rank 6, need to work up for the exam if not , i might not be able to maintain likewise get top.

Then went for lunch at century square had ban mian then chatted with my classmates and stuff,took train and went back home, now resting till 4 then go clementi meet Jack. Sian wonder wad is the lobang.

Well,sms with YuYing JieJie and she told me find other frens whom i can study with so i can study. Well, i reply maybe studying alone is better. I shall work up so i can get my goals. In math, get top of the class in the exam paper then Rebus be the top and beat Chit Min.

Hehe,going to rest and do math now
feeling sleepy yawns
LeIMen-Ray

Getting tough

2010-09-01T19:37:00.000-07:00

It is now harder and harder to maintain YOG bonds. It is so hard now, everyone is back into their own lives. Now communication has become so hard, it is like there is barriers in between each of us. Breaking the barrier has become so tough that i want to give up. Well, guess it is time to go back to my own world? and set up my defense too?

Well, there is the upcoming Comex, hoping to get my mp3 there. MY brother also want another new one, so i will be looking out for his and mine. Saw the newspaper today and say this Dslr camera page, was so glued to it, dam almost cannot control my desire. So love the features and look of those cams.

Well,should be going out to study de, but i am stuck with 2 never early person. One is Fiona,another Peng Fang. Well, should meet at 11 at bugis starbuck but early morning Fiona say change to 1130. Well, tried calling Peng Fang but no one picked up guess he is still sleeping. With this kind of people , will i have the will to study.

Yesterday prove otherwise,was not able to study and went around walking instead. Will today be the same as yesterday? will history repeat itself. My friends in poly do not learn from history, no wonder ,my bonds with them may not or will not be strong.Wanted to take pictures yesterday but the mood was gone but the flow of the day.

I wanted to share about my eye candy with my frens as well but i guess not. They will such a turn off. So i kept it to myself. Then feel like i lost a fren,she is su xuan looks like she been suck into the relationship world where nothing else matters and i need him only mentality.

I left my eye candy world already, no sms, no contact , no nothing. It will be just a piece of memory with me and a feeling that was reactivated. I really hope i can have another eyecandy soon. There are so many girl in my poly yet i have no eye candy but with such a small YOG range of ppl i interacted, i can have a eye candy. I guess quality do matter than quantity.

Read the latest update on MOE, the new measures which will be implemented now and by 2013. Well, of course it will not be fair to the older batch of course. With this new measures, we are bound to see change in education. It will create more opportunites and Singapore younger generation with the new education scheme will become more lazy and take things for granted. This is not strengthening our youths, it is spoon feeding them.

A lot has been going on since prime minister Mr Lee rally speech. The properties,the education, the movement and all. The papers have not stop publishing on it. Is this change relevant or not. We will see the long term and not the short term. Well this reminds of YOg. IT was a short term fun and interacting, bonds so strong so happy but it will not last for the long term where YOG bonds weaken but it will not be broken. Will the change ignite the same results?

Well, it is 11 and none of them has answer me. So i guess, i will have a head start in my own studies my own future my own dreams. REBUS and Math here i come, i shall ace u and set a good GPA start for my first Sem
Life get Tougher each moment
LeIMen-Ray

Sudden Anger

2010-09-01T04:09:00.000-07:00

Went for revision. Totally felt it was a waste of my time. Spend most of my time catching up and strengthening the bonds with my classmates.After the revision, most of us went to tamps and ate lunch at carls Jr. Well,chitmin,pengfang,zaixuan,jaclyn,emorine,sizheng,fanny and gina of my class was there. WE had lot of rubbish chat, talk about dental and a bit of our childhood.After that we all went our separate ways. Most went home, while i went to peng fang house and waited for a while before going to bugis to meet fiona to study.
Went to his house, we both turn on our coms and we did facebook a while and share videos with each other. It was about 250, we both got ready to go bugis and we took bus 12. Along the way we were talking about the facade and property.
WE reach bugis and fiona was still stalled up. so went to popular shop around then went to funan It mall then to Sim lim square. WE walk for 2 hrs and she was not here yet so we walk from sim lim towards bugis street and we saw her with her sister. WE chatted a while and went to long john as they wanted to eat. We chatted on stupid stuff again
then i went home, i was on the bus and i was pissed off by the people on it. They was selfish and irritating. i was so angry that i tap the wrong card. dam going to be charged full fare...
Angry
LeIMen-Ray

BAck to school

2010-08-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

Well, was having a good time smsing YuYing JieJIe. Then i got a shock and a fright from her. She said she read my blog. At first i was horrified but she was nice enough to keep the details of the blog to herself. Thanks JieJIe, i hope u are reading this.

Well, it is such a long time since i been back to the school. Still cannot believe the fact i am in TP and is completing the first part of the year. Well,it feel so virtual and not real but in fact it is a reality. Although the school was not my first choice,the course was. I love the course more than i love the school.
I l
Back to school for a 2hr revision,actually , i could just pon it and just study on my own. Just wanted to come school and catch up with my classmates if not the bonds may have been broken. Well, i prefer to go for REBUS revision then maths as REBUS is something i like ^^

Well,boring stuff. LAst night was tossing around in my bed, thinking about school. I was thinking how to get my creative zen mozaic ez300 4GB. I am getting it into a reality for sure as my ipod shuffle do not want to serve me and it killed itself :(.

Then came my next thought, it was to have a DSLR camera Cannon Eso 500 would be good. I love to take picture and share it. I love to capture those special moments. However, i am not bless with good wealth... so this dream can only to fufill when i graduated and get a job. I love to take photography as a hobby.

I love to learn to cook nice food too. THen i can have fun in the kitchen and do what i like and do wad i want. Then i can cook for my family ^^ Cooking is such a fun thing,,my first cooking experience with my friend was great. IT was so fun being in the kitchen,challenging the recipe and seeing the final result.

It is almost time for my revision to start.SHall stop here
Sian abt math REvision
LeIMen-Ray

Emptiness in my heart

2010-08-30T21:43:00.000-07:00

Why do i say there is emptiness in my heart?

Well, firstly, the end of YOG ended my colourful days. All the fun have become a permanent memories, which can never be found again but can be remembered in our hearts. All the bonds are weakening but it will not be broken. As more days pass by, many things were be forgotten and people go back to their lives.

This is what i find life amusing, it is like when bonds that are the strongest made from events,camp and YOG. ONce they end, the bonds weaken but it cannot be broken. Then as we move on our path, we tend to have so many weaken but strong bonds at the same time. For some of us, it will always be this case as there is no one you can depend on so called best fren forever. What is BFF? Does we all have BFF only that we dun realized. Then what is this emptiness i am feeling.

Well,i guess my feelings for my eye candy is also weakening. THe feeling is almost to zero. Well, at least the feeling was once real. She said in her facebook, when did everything start going wrong. Then in my heart, i felt since i crashed into your world. I will now permanent removed myself from her world. Funny thing is like, every one has a world. We who ventured into the universe in small crafts to find another world that we also belong to .(other half of u) We often get pulled into worlds we seems to be interested and leave when we face rejection or unable to adapt. Once u find the right world u can be,u settle down in their worlds and become marriage in real life.

Funny thing is that my craft was once in between 2 worlds, stuck by both world gravity once i thought YIseul world was for me then it wasnt as of yet . Then i was being pulled to Cheng Ee world whom i thought was for me but there was someone on her world. So being pulled by two world gravity,i belong to none. Cannot even go back to my own world. With my family world crashing into mine. Venturing into the universe and into the worlds, i felt freedom.

With an addition to my 'family' was another JieJIe, YUYIng Jiejie. She is a lovely JieJIe too. I think she is. After YOG i have 4 JieJIe, for the first that i felt there was support for me.

Back to reality, i need to keep to my plan which i create, i follow about 70% . Today i am way behind my plan.I will catch up. It is just frustrating. I need to grab a new MP3 player to create a barrier in my world so it will be the world i can go back too.

Emptiness
LeIMen-Ray

Sudden Thoughts

2010-08-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

Well,Just plan for today:] Just hope i can be like Yiseul who just start slacking then can studying all the way from day to night. Well, that may not be wad i am or wad i like but i know that motivation to study for my REBUS.

After YOG, i felt as thought i lost somethings and gain some new things. I lost the bonds with my poly frens(Just my feeling). I gain 3 new JIeJIe^^ i love my 3 jiejie and is going to miss them a lot. I got the kind Tiwi JieJIe , Nice Melissa Jie JIe and protective Wang Fei JieJIe ^^

Tiwi JieJIe

Melissa JieJIe

Wang Fei JieJie

I also gain something important to me, The ability to fall in love. Thank Yiseul, because of her i found this wonderful feeling back which was lost by my first epic fail relationship. To be able to love someone was my greatest gift, i once lost it but thanks to my present eye candy i found it. However, i know i can only love her and not ask for the same for her, but it is alright. Able to give love means i am able to love myself le. She is busy with her path right now so i should not crash into her path and cause problems. I will see her from afar and if she is happy then it should be alright to me as i think that is the right way to love someone.

Yiseul is the girl beside me

Well, Yesterday , team 5 had a meeting, so as i thought. However, so many unpredictable stuffs happened. Only a few of us turn up, i dun blame the rest because i understand their problems. I will one day face the same thing again. ONly 2 of my jiejie came, my kind jiejie got her relationship problems, Then some of them got homework ,meetings and exam coming. THe NTU people had to move back to hall. Well the turn out was not that good. We spend most of the time playing cards. Nothing else was done. I hope i could plan one with more people who knows , i may be selfish and invite people i know for it then we will break ice and know more people,like a social party ? Or i should just first has a simple team 5 outing i am not sure.

This was the turnout

Well shall stop here , i need to keep to my plans. I am 2 minutes behind time le.
Rushing to complete my plans
LeIMen-Ray

Me(horoscope)

2010-08-28T07:59:00.000-07:00

Few people are as practical and ambitious as Capricorn. Yours is the tenth sign, an earthy element, which makes you down to earth and matter-of-fact. Caution is your second name and this is due to Saturn, your ruling planet. You are sometimes shy and lack self confidence and self-esteem.

I've never met a Capricorn who was afraid of hard work in order which to achieve what they want in life. You are ambitious and go for your dreams and usually end up successful. You like money but not if it involves risk. You prefer to know exactly where your dollars and cents are going. You prefer traditional types of savings.

Others do not generally see you as too enthusiastic but when people get to know you, you do have a side to your nature which is humorous and affectionate. You like to work quietly and effectively without creating too much bother or attention to yourself.

You are emotionally cool so you don't warm to people that easily until you get to know them. Once you get closer you start to feel comfortable with them. Suspicion is one of the chief traits of Capricorn and when you meet people for the first time it is your way of displaying maturity by not jumping the gun. You like to understand what another person is really about.

You are a big thinker even though you work methodically and practically by taking your time to achieve what you set out to do. You never like airy, fairy concepts and only work on ideas which will vouch safe your financial and material security in the future. You are not a clock watcher when you work because you believe in doing a job right the first time round. You also hate wasting time. You are frugal, resourceful and hard working. Commitment is natural to you which is why, as I said earlier, you are likely to be successful in anything you attempt.

Not all Capricorns are supported in their lives so you learnt from an early age how to be self sufficient and to make it alone. You know exactly how to achieve your ambitions by yourself. Your primary philosophy is that self sufficiency is strength so you do not like to ask others to carry you. This also has a basis in the fact that you like to take full credit for what you achieve.

"Expect the worst but hope for the best" is a saying that I have often heard many Capricorns repeat. Basically you are very level-headed and don't expect things to happen overnight. People admire the way you work because you are motivated by your ambitions but also like to perfect your work and do it properly. You can always be relied upon to help others and not cut corners.

A traditional life style appeals to you because you like things in their place and need to be in control. Because of this you are not always the most exciting person to be around but you are extremely loyal and will never let anyone down when you give them your word. It does not seem to bother you that others see you as less adventurous. The name of the game to you is living life on your own terms rather than compromising.

Sometimes others make the mistake of thinking you are elitist. They get the sense you are looking down on them but this is not so because you are actually a very generous person with both your money and your time and if the cause is a worthy one there are fewer who are as generous as you.

Due to your cautious and meticulous mind you are a wonderful judge of character and can easily see through the BS. You are aware of the consequences of partnership both commercially and personally and are absolutely committed to your word.

If others get to know you they will understand that you are a very trustworthy, dependent, punctual individual that you can always be counted on to fulfil their needs and help them if the occasion arises.

In money matters you are extremely hard to deal with and are sometimes seen as being overly materialistic. Although you do drive a hard bargain your integrity always steers your course in life.

You have an incredible capacity to withstand the blows of life and even if times get tough your resilience and dedication is second to none. You gain greater strength than others from whatever misfortune occurs. You are like the steel under the blacksmith's hammer, getting stronger with every blow!

Your token is the Goat which shows just how capable you are of reaching the heights of any mountain. Your success is likely to occur later in life but when it does, you share what you have with others. You like measuring your success through what you have.

You expect people to be just as trustworthy as yourself. If you accept a responsibility you do so with full commitment. You always demand the same level of integrity from anyone you deal with both in the work place and at home.

You are sure to scale the heights of success and due to your keen focus, discipline and concentration your ruling planet Saturn insures a great deal of success, power and happiness. Capricorn stands for courage and achievement after a long and tedious effort

adapted from Dadhichi.2010,August.[online]Available: http://www.astrology.com.au/12signs/capricorn.asp copyright© 2001-2010

Myself and my eyecandy^^(Yiseul) Compatibility

Capricorn + Scorpio

Earth + Water = Mud

Friendship is the operative word when we look at this combination. Although you’re cautious, at times mistrusting of others, you may well put that aside with Scorpio. You instinctively feel they have your best interests at heart, and that they’re deeper than the average person.

You’ll like each other very quickly, and feel a sense of kinship. Although your ruling planets aren’t the best of friends, astrologically speaking, you’ll somehow feel comfortable together.

Both of you are industrious and hardworking, and you’re both very committed to your goals, though you have different motivations. Scorpio cares more about emotional passion than money. They like what power can offer them; you’re more interested in what money can buy.

When your powers and talents are combined, the two of you can build a partnership which will bring great material wealth and power. You’ll need to stay balanced, if you’re to work and play together, though, because there will be power conflicts between you.

Your forces of love will combine beautifully in a family scenario. The two of you will provide a safe and loving environment for your loved ones, and your family will never want for anything.

Your sexual compatibility is not high initially. Scorpio likes to express sexuality in every possible way; you have a much more reserved approach. Scorpio’s sexual enthusiasm could overwhelm you in your first meeting with them, and make you feel they have an ulterior motive; you’ll need time to overcome this mistrust and warm to their sexual style.

If Scorpio gives you a chance (and a little patience and help!), your sexual expression will mature. Once you are ready to give them your all, the physical relationship between you will be satisfying for them as well.

Good friendships are the most likely relationships with Scorpios born between 24 October and 2 November. You will have a very animated connection with them, and although friendship is at the heart of it, expect lots of debate and discussion, even some disagreements.

Scorpios born between 3 November and 12 November will need to see your compassionate and generous side if they are to get involved with you. They might seem to have their heads in the clouds rather than their feet on the ground (the Pisces influence), but they are loving, and given a chance, they will respond to you. You will have some wonderful times together.

If you’re involved with a Scorpio born between 13 November and 22 November, give yourself a pat on the back. These Scorpios are your best match. They are strongly influenced by the Moon, which means your relationship with them will deepen very quickly.

adapted from Dadhichi.2010,August.[online]Available: http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/compatibility.asp copyright© 2001-2010

Mistake

2010-08-27T06:52:00.000-07:00

To Yiseul
I made a big MISTAKE.
Now nothing going to change the fact.
I should have done this, i should not have send it.
I had ruin everything,even the friendship which i fought hard to get it.
Now it has come to a waste.
I regret trying but it was what i really wanted to do.
Maybe i did it at the wrong time.
I am really sorry if i hurt you.
Apology
LeIMen-Ray

Recent drama

2010-08-26T20:40:00.000-07:00

I met Cheng Ee at 630 at lavender MRT station. We walk to the JBS and sat around,went to watch the bronze match between Singapore and Montenegro. Singapore won 4-1 and i saw two goals only, the penalty score and the header. Well,after the match went to the dinner area,grab something to eat.

After eating,we went to the holding room,again it was a toilet but this time instead of IRan , it was the Singapore holding room. COol haha. Then we chatted here and there and we took some pics.For team 5 ,there was only me,Cheng Ee,Hooi Choo, Tiwi,wang Fei and syariff. Me and Tiwi did APe while WF,CE did MMP, hooi cho a PA and syariff podium assistant. Instead of 4Ae we got only 3. So me and tiwi had lots to do. Well,thank goodness i got Yiseul to help me. During the VC , i went to help tiwi in organising them as me and Yiseul were ready le.

The VC started,Tiwi lead the Gold medalists and me the silver medalists. Unlike yesterday we move around to ensure the order was good and we even help the athletes. We had a good time and it was the a moment of glory as everything came out so well. After the VC ,we were free to take photos and do what ever we wanted.

At that time ,i was happy but i was lacking one thing, my camera was not in my hands. However, i managed to took pics, Thanks to VAnessaKoh,VanessaLiew,Abigial and Yiseul, we were going around taking pictures. When i couldnt find the rest of my team so i hang out with them,making new friends at the same time. It was such a moment.

At a point,i saw wil lying on the pit so i wanted to down po him but it came too late and we were taking pics today but i try again,instead of down poing him i kena carried up and was swinging in mid air hahas, I was too light and he had more COG haha.Then we all went to the changing room and waited for Wil.

JieJIe(tiwi) said i had all eyes on YIseul. OMG, i thought it is so embarrassing , it was so subconsciousness that i myself did not notice.OH boy,i guess i haven been so attracted to a gal for such a long time. The feeling was good hahas. After Wil brief, we all went off. I walked with 2 JieJIe(WF,TIWI) Hooi choo ,Cheng Ee and Yiseul.
Cheng Ee was a bit emo so she sort of took off first and we couldnt catch up. Then i was walking behind Jie Jie and talking to Yiseul^^ we chatted a while, well then she took her cab, my jie jie too then i walk home.

Cheng Ee was there waiting for her fetch but she was really upset wonder what happen to her. I went home, i sms Yiseul for a while, sms jie jie too. In a few hours time,i had to be at SIS for another VC.Slept for a while.

It was 815, i overslept and i was chionging my morning as i had to meet Them at 845, but thanks goodness i live nearby only. So i get my stuff ready and set off. I made it in time and reach at 844 so i waited for the rest. Melissa come not long later and we will chatting,Ian came to join us. We saw Cheng Ee and wanted her to join us , but she was still emo and went in to SIS alone:( Then we waited for Jie JIe(tiwi) it was also jie jie birthday^^

She came and we all walk to SIS, then Jie Jie was like talking about my crush over Yiseul haha, It was so funny and embarrassing at the same time. THen we went in to the Area then Jie Jie was saying woo,why everything Cheng Ee Cheng Ee de. THen OMG , i didnt notice again, How come i care for Cheng Ee and Yiseul? maybe they are nice? am i attracted to both of them?

Well, it was gettign late and Hooi Choo was no where to be seen,so me ,yijun,weien and cheng ee decided to prank her,but the facts were wrong but oh boy yijun was such a good lier. HAha it was funny.There was 6 flaggiers and we made the impossible happened as there was only one last VC,we had our whole team out. Wow it was awesome^^. We took pics after the end of the event.

Then Jiejie(WF),melissa,hooi choo, me ,wil and wei YAng went to suntec to eat. At first me yang ,hooichoo and mel were waiting for jie jie as she took wrong side. After that we went into suntec,hooichoo yang and jie jie waited for wil while i accompany mel to buy her eye candy a birthday present then we join the group at Aston for lunch.

**All the pics can be found on FB^^

Well then after the food came we took pics and we started to eat then Wil got weird meat then he talk to the manager and the conversation was long , Wil got another piece of ribeye. Then Wil made friends with the manager and the manager treated us to some drinks. What a fun time haha. We were having a good chat. THen we were planning the sunday outing and it became a pool party hahas.

Then we all went back home and we were set to meet on Sunday^^ After reaching home i went for Fusionball practice and it was tiring so i went home and sleep directly after a msn chat with Yiseul.

Well,today was a spooky moment i send a message to Yiseul indirectly asking whether i can woo her or not. Boy first time did such a thing, feeling nervous, want to see her reply and at the same time do not want. Haiz. Wad an intense feeling. Finger crossed

I had to study after uploading pics and blogging and doing the event page for sunday.

nervous/excited/reluctant
LeIMen-Ray

Last night

2010-08-24T22:11:00.000-07:00

Well, last night was the first JBS victory ceremony. It was the largest scale for the whole of SYOG. Well, it didnt stop us from doing our best. We did our best and it was a major sucess.

Well,there might be some venue problems we faced in the first place, but the good thing was while waiting , we could go and watch the soccer match.Well, the atmosphere was good and high, the only thing lacking was the commentator and the replays,once you missed it, it will not reappeared again.

Well,finally got a holding room. Which was in a toilet, gosh it was my first experience, it was crap but we made full use of the place. Well, we miss the beautiful goals in the match but did catch a exciting penalties as the end due to the draw. After changing into full dress,we took several pictures but not many as it was not my team,the feeling was not there.

After a while, the SAJC people was assigned to us APEs. While,assisting me was Yiseul Shin,she is a pretty and pretty much the type of girls i like. She is a korean hence she is 2 months older then me. If she dun mind the age gap, who knows whether i will woo her or not.

But closer to my side was Cheng Ee, even though she was attached, it didnt stop me from knowing her better. The feeling and impression of her was good. Being in RI, she didnt have the impression that i expected. It was nice knowing her. Again, If she was not attached, who knows whether i will woo her or not.

Well, it was near the final moments of the game,we will gathering in the entrance of the pit. We will holding our suspense. While i was chatting with Yiseul,such a nice cute and pretty girl. i was enjoying the match. It was coming to the end and the start of the penalties when the drama occured.

The equatorial Guinea coaches was unhappy,they was shouting here and there. While thanks goodness there was a translator in the crowd and we seek his help.Then it was like the coaches was unhappy there was a penalties and not extra time. It was stated in the rule book so it was not debatable. They had no choice but to go with it.

Well, it was an exciting moment, it was filled with so much feelings. In the end EG lost to Chile in 4-3 score. The EG team was so depressed and sad that both me and Yiseul was in low morale. I had to escort the low morale team for the VC, while there was lot of reluctant. It was hard for me but i did not care about anything, i keep moving and assisting the flow. I was the only APE moving about in the VC and i feel i did the right thing.

After the VC, i was abit down but it was okay. Went to the dining area after helping shelly move the stuff an dismissed. Wang Fei wanted some light snack so we went. I wrote down all the names for our team to claim taxi and i pass the claims to Wil and they can home or so on.

When before leaving, the thought of Yiseul and another gal saying a cute bye warms myself hahas. Well, i walked Cheng Ee to the train station, it was late so i did what i had to as a guy. She took to Clementi and got a lift from her parent back home. We sms till 1 plus then both of us will sleeping le.

HAd good dreams, it was fun in my dreams ^^
Looking forward in seeing Cheng Ee and Yiseul tonight for the last VC for JBS.
HEHE
LeIMen-Ray

First impression

2010-08-23T22:36:00.000-07:00

Early morning,i had to wake up to prepared to go to JBS for a rehearsal.Well set alarm at 7 back was lazing in the bed till 840,was so tired and dun feel like going. Well,i was with 2 others of my team going to meet a new group of people ,well strangers. Well, had a quick breakfast and went off at 930.

I went to the supermarket to buy some stuff, while smsing Wang Fei and Cheng Ee. Cheng Ee managed to find the place so left Wang Fei. On my way to the train station,i saw my venue manager and we chatted for a while then team 11 ,the other team people came strolling past and Wil follow them to the venue while i go and fing Wang Fei.

I went down the escalator while She went up,So i took a detour and went back up and we watch to JBS. Was there the first time ,do not really know the entrance,so went looking . We found it and called Wil , he came out with our passes and we went in.

There in the dinning area was several groups. What i saw was girls sitting one corner,guys another corner ,within guys was also several group. It was full of segregation. So different with my team. SO was not feeling okay at there. Thanks goodness i got Cheng Ee and Wang Fei at that time we chatted to kill boredom. Well,Susuanty was there too, but the converstaion could not get flowing.

Finally, after sitting for an hour,we went to the area and we got our rehearsal going.I meet up with fellows APE , i was a newbie in this field so i had to depend on them. quickly, we made friends with each other, we had 2 APE from ICC and 3 from JBS and me from SIS(but as a flaggier) Well,even though i was new, i got used to it soon and was having fun. Well,the combined rehearsal was a torture. MY shirt was getting wet and my shoes were starting to burn.Well , quickly we went off after the rehearsal.

Well,then it bring me back to the break. I was with fellow APEs, We played UNO but it was not as fun as it would be with my team. However, it was good i guess, Quiet and serious play,not really as fun. Took some drinks and went to prepared for combined rehearsal.

The rehearsak ended , we took off in our own paths, i met up with Wang Fei and Cheng Ee. We took the train to Bugis where me and Wang Fei had our lunch and Cheng Ee was studying. AFter lunch i walk home,Wang Fei trained back to NTU to rest while Cheng Ee went to the National Library to do her work.

Well,why i walk home? Because the 100plus exploded and was spilled all over my pants and shirt so i decided to walk home,first to avoid crowd second to let it dry. Well after the walk home,it really dry up.

Well after smsing and blogging and updating, i am now going to take a nap
Nights
LeIMen-Ray

Been a long Weekend

2010-08-22T19:17:00.000-07:00

Well, guess i will talk about yesterday soccer match in YOG semi-final. This is the first time i was so attracted to the match and so focus in it for once. YOu have done us proud ,Team Singapore, i guess Haiti drama caught us off guard and we didnt manage to win it back. It was both exciting and frustrating to watch. What a tension. After the match, i wished Singapore could have won. All the opportunities lead to a goal. How nice would that be. Well,the match may cause a lot of unhappiness but it also shows that we cannot be confident when we are the favorites.

Well, after the match i was thinking back on the sec1 camp this year and previous years. How can the standard drop so much. During my time i must say,it was so fun to have such camps,we had crazy moments but this year camp was dull and fill with no emotions. What has happened to our younger leaders. What is going through their minds?I miss the camps moments i shared with my batch of UG leaders, girl guides,Saint john and npcc. It was such a thrill with them. We will always trying to win each other but in the end, it was not the winning but the fun we had. Well, the influence over the sec 1 in our time was great, where we try to persuade people into UG instead of our own CCAs. Well, this year camp was just a battle of the leaders own pride. There was no influence,no fun,no unity but full of pride. They will competing in the wrong direction. Yet i cannot guide them as i was dealing with the camp issues,but well hope they learnt and do not have the same mistakes again. I think this year sec2,3,4 will remember me. Be it being on the president of student Councillor or a UG leader or a great friend. This was the belief i had. Be yourself,lead with passion,make new frens and have fun. I believe i had shown it in my camps.

Happy things hehe, MY VYC is the best, we had so much fun moments together, playing random games with each other ,despite having a wider range of age group, we got poly,jc and unis. But it didnt stop us from having fun and creating stronger bonds.
WE have tons of photos waiting to be shown to the world hahas.
Well ,today having headache ,did not have a good rest so cant think much right now
Headaches, It hurts , it really do
LeIMen-Ray

Well Mellisa is down with fever,so we were be missing one of our team mates for today. I almost wanted to not go for today since i having headache, But figured out things and knew i couldnt do it. It will not be in response to my belief. Well, we all belong to different worlds but camps and VYC can bring us close and not care where we are from but have fun together and making new friends. I miss the NYC camps where i was in Team Apache,the team we formed and the bonds ,the night, the fun, the sharing of each other, the tight emotions. It was such a rare sight but i seen it, the joy and laughters and all the fun we were having. The friendships were so strong.

Well, it brings me back to my secondary school frens. We had the class motto of fun, joy and laughter. Well the moments were short but great. However, the frenships i forged in class was not as strong as the ones i forged in camps,events.

Then thinking back in primary school,well Mr Dass post our P4 pics which suddenly brought our p4 class together,we were chatting with one another. Well i really love the moments in primary school,the frenships and bonds were so strong. How i wish those moments will last,even though we still have short moments of fun together. I was pretty happy and contented already. We all now walk towards different blocks of lives. But the bonds and memories will remain in our hearts. Even though it may fade and get blurry but when we gather and see each other the memories will just be back.

LOVE HONG WEN 2005 batch, My only wish is that we come together back to the old school,the old HONG WEN before it is demolished and we sign the School song for one last time

Memories
LeIMen-Ray
Must prepared for the VC later, must get ready the flags and go to SIS

Back for more action

2010-08-19T16:16:00.001-07:00

It has been a long while since i blog.
Well it is coming to the end of term 2.This is the YOG period where poly students are enjoying their holidays while some volunteered to have a part in this history making moment.
For me, I took up the role of flag bearer and i must say, i enjoy the moments and new frens made in the VYC, The victory ceremony committee. With my first VC yesterday, It was filled with lots of feelings. SO much till, words are not able to convey my thoughts. With a few more VC till the end of YOG, 26 august. Today we have VC for Tennis, looking forward to it.
WEll after YOG comes the stressful study week. But i am fortunate to have only 2 papers to take ,Real estate business and maths. GOing to take it seriously. I am going to put my belief of getting As into a reality:) I hope my classmates and course mates believe in it too.
Well, wanted to return blogging because received a sms that made me think a lot but it cannot be expressed so here i am turning to blogging to say out the truth about my thoughts and feelings.
After last night,i cannot sleep proper,keep tossing and turning about on my bed. Even if i enter sleep, i dream about the VC which was a bit of a irritating nightmare, in the day have VC and going to have VC for next few days. Yet cannot even have peace at night.So early this morning, i was waken by an sms but i couldnt sleep anymore so i woke up and answer the sms.
Here is the sms from a**ie

Darling,must reply(: Forward this message to everyone in ur cntct list & c which no(s) u get, be honest
1.you are cute
2.go to hell
3.I wanna fuck u
4.i wanna kiss u
5.i wanna hug u
6.be mine and only
7.i love you
8.i need u right now
9.i fucking miss u
10.dont ever leave me
11.we are more then frens5
12.you are my everything
13.i wish you will mine
14.how i wish we were in love
15.u die ,i die wif u
16.i hate u
17.ur 5 my god sis/bro
18.i want u to be my bf/gf
19.ur my best fren
20.ur a damn beautiful gal/damn handsome boy
21.Ur damn sexy

So which number will be mine?Do be honest. REply me pls thanks [: I want to know how u all feel for me.

This sms come so sudden and is from a gal which i think i will liked. Well,she is 3 yr younger and is attract so i do not want any problem.
This sms is so direct that u should send to ppl u like and see how they feel. Weird sms i must say. I received another one which is not direct but focus on frenship.
Hence i reply,u are cute and pretty, U will always be my sweetheart(her nickname). THou shall not reveal anymore.
I guess i wrote the right time.
THen it brought me to think about the girl i like.
She must be cute,innocent,shy look.
bubbling personality ;]
filial .
I chatted about this with **lis** a yog volunteer in my team. We were doing detours to get to MBS on the 14 august(OPening hence lots of place affect) We took 2 hours just to get there despite being so near already... WE had to change our volunteer card no choice,but we had a great time.
I am being attracted to her?? maybe. Weird time,my first BGR was with a girl 3 yrs younger,used to like a gal 3 yr younger now attracted to a gal 3 yr older.
3 3 3 some kind of trend? hahas
Well that all for now,Put everything out. Feel better. Now the rain is heavy and very dark. Wonder wad should i whip up for breakfast.hour and 40 mins before going to KTC for duty.
I believe
LeIMen-Ray

31 day

2010-06-01T07:24:00.000-07:00

Yay
LAst paper ,last day of term 1^^
after paper had one hell of a time,facebook pics shall say all
wait for the link
^^
LeIMen-Ray

Day 30

2010-05-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

Today got MATH Term test
...
NTH to blog about

29day

2010-05-27T06:56:00.000-07:00

Today was normal
went to class help here and there.
WRtoral was ok.
Then was math lec,had a good time with ainey and nadhirah,talking about ahem hahas
Then was CADS quiz
Went around the school just for a stupid quiz
somemore it was pretty funny and pissful
well that was that.
Went to libray then exits
went to tamp eat
then went home
NTH much
LeIMen-Ray

28 day

2010-05-26T04:31:00.000-07:00

Wow,it has been 7 weeks of studying.
Went to school early ate breakfast then went library
Research on our design and everything.
Then watch mask rider haha.
Then went for effcom
play a game then see marks not bad .Improvement make^^
then went apel,short while
then went mensa eat with a lot of PPL
Then went back to Hear the briefing on YOG.
training on 16 june^^
Then went to library print stuff.
Then went library for a while.
Go tutorial then left
then slack a while.
Chat with Su Xuan^^
then went home
No mood,very tired.
LeIMen-Ray

27th day

2010-05-25T05:30:00.000-07:00

Today was interesting.
Started by doing REBUS assignment chionging more.
then was CADS test,it was okay i guess,then was math ,wasted my time i guess.
Then went ot eat at CS with gina,fanny,sizheng,zai xuan,peng fang ,alcan and Eccles.
Then went shopping with Zai xuan at bugis
Brought present for jaclyn and yee ching
not in the mood to blog
LeIMen=Ray

26 day

2010-05-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

Today was okay
Went to take 69 instead found out got 2 timing 731 or 743 shoots wad a difference
As it was monday ,it was so crowded.
Reach school before 8,all electricity not yet in place ,at 8 then only then all school lights and fans are fully on.
Well,chatted a while here and there.
WEnt for REBUS ,it was understandable but still need to study more^^.
Then was math revision and log,listen very attentively^^
THen Was rebus tutorial,the test was pretty hard for me ,so i guess i got to bulk up,then went for lunch at it school,saw suxuan and wilson.
THen was math tutorial was talking about randow stuff.
Then came HCDE ,got project brief now going to research and complete it ^^
REBUS still haven complete:(
still chionging
LeIMen-Ray

25th day

2010-05-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

Well,today was hmm,started with a cold war but dun want to make myself angry after getting the advices from frens.
WEll today morning was late.miss the bus and there was a lot of ppl ()esp gals() in the next bus.
Reach school at823 later by 23 mins,wasted such precious time.
In addition ,i went to the wrong lab+(
Haiz not a good day,went in the lab ,had a cold conversation with chit min.
Well,the day still goes on.Learnt 3D ^^
THen went for math ,had a good time,then lecture on REBUS,it was good at first but as time flys by our attention and energy also faded away.
Well managed to pull through.
Then went to IT school to eat (zai xuan,pengfang,alcan,eecles,yeeching,jaclyn,sizheng,gina,sinni and fanny.
Sin NI went home first.
Then the rest of us followed suite.
Had a fun time with fanny talking about gal chest haha ,so funny.
Then went home,see the people install aircon,wanted to not go YOG ex
But still went,had a good time
tired,moving furniture around
Sleepy ,TMR GOT TWO THINGS running at the same time same place haiz
got to balance^^
LeIMen-Ray

24 th day of school

2010-05-20T06:30:00.000-07:00

Well ,today was very fun^^.
Went to school early today to eat prata,was good^^.
Went to 14560 for wrtoral.
well volunteer to be 2nd ,well it was not too bad.
Got a B+ grade.well a bit disapointing i must say.
Then went for maths ^^ learnt inverse function.
Finally Cads lecture ,had fun.
Short time^^ wad after the lecture is the most fun part.
We(me,fanny,jaclyn,yeeching,lisa,zai xuan,alcan,peng fang and eecles)
bus to tampines^^
Went in pizzahut for a while then left without a word hahas.
Then went to Seoul Garden.Had a great time.
The seven of us had a great time,as though as we were family(F,J,Z,Y,A,L,me)
then fanny got to go back home and recover from her lack of sleep,wonder how is she?
So peng fang came in and the new 7 of us was joking here and there so fun.
Then we went shopping.^^
then went home le.
didnt attend the ML discussion.
then had fusion ball practice.
LeIMen-Ray

23 day

2010-05-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

It is nearing to our term break,Week 5 le
Time flies,every moments counts.
Well today HCDE ,i almost panicked but i calm myself and managed to complete it^^
Well added my style to it^^
Then i am thrown into a whirlpool of thoughts
Will i group with YiEnn and ChitMin ,it is as though they say it.
I have a say but i am really confused
As if i join them which means i will PS my buddy Ah Zai
Wonder wad will happen,will frenship be destroy ?and new frenship forged?
When EFFCOM test seems simple but it is not.
Lots of spelling i can do haiz,so went for the simplest of all.
THen Was APEL,got feedback for WRTORAL ,going to finalize it soon enough.
Then went to food court with Gina,fanny ,zai xuan and chit min +alcan and eccles
While busing there,fanny,gina,emorine,zai xuan,me then chitmin squeezed on the back row of the bus,Wow so cool like very bonded^^
Well had a chat,walk then home
Train home with Fanny,talk about wad?Cant remember much about wad gals afraid me?wrtoral haha.
NOw going to do REBUS,MAths and Wrtoral
LeIMen-Ray

22 Day of school

2010-05-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

HAppy,
Well ,feel good because i keep up to expectations,however i will seek more mistakes and improve more.Having Said that, I want to keep improving on my work and do not wish to be misguided into the path i dun want.
HAving a goal is wad drives me to excellence,The scholarships,the Dip with Merit,level awards,medalists, I want to be in this category and i am fighting for it.
Now , everything seems fine but so many loopholes.
Firstly need to settle REBUS ,well behind time le.
WEll ,need to study harder,feel so sad when u are so close to the A grade but yet so far.
Went to school in a new way,train to Bedok instead of Tampines,bus 69,despite going out quite a bit later with my dad, I reach 2 mins early than my normal way to tamps then bus.
I feel it was great^^.
Went and accompany Alcan for breakfast then went to LAb to do Extapractice.
Well was finishing but it was time for the lab assign
So went outside class to wait for the teachers to set up.
Pass the forms to vanessa .CHECK
DO well for CADS .CHeck
then was emath,finish the tutorial but needed help ,need to improve on MAths ,must not slack in maths le,MUST start doing the MAth Practices.
THen went KFC to eat,was fun chatting with fanny,zai xuan alcan and pengfang^^
Then went home .
SHOOTS watch too much tv now need to do work.
STUDY HCDE and EFFCOM
STUDYYYYYYY!!!
LeIMen-Ray

21 day

2010-05-17T04:19:00.000-07:00

Today was okay.
Good math lecture,learnt something new.
Rebus was dam fun ^^
Emath tut was doing work
HCDE was fun.
GOt quiz got back my stuff^^
LeIMen-Ray

20Days

2010-05-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

Well ,today was in a haste,everything chionging around.
Started with CADS,did a good job but almost late for math lec
then math lec was not very fun,was focused haha.
Then REBUS,was eating here and there.
Chat with fanny,yee ching,jaclyn and zai xuan.
THen went for lunch as a whole group.
THen went home.
Bus 69 with sin ni ,chatted on random stuff.
Then train home
blahblah.
LeIMen-Ray
*chiong FINISH all the work

19 day

2010-05-13T05:35:00.000-07:00

Coming to the end of Week 4
Today is thursday,boring thursday.
Going into Slack mood again.NEED SOMEONE TO Rush me again haiz
Guess i going to chiong this weekend.
Tests,Quizs,Exams and Projects raining down on me again.
YEt homework are not completed ,work ar work.
Well talk about today.
Monday went to school eat prata.
THen sit around chatting nonsense.
Then went for class.WRTORAL,it is getting boring ...
BUt the jokes in the class was good.^^
ESp Si Zheng ^^
THen was EMATH lec,was super Dry
like drinking hot and dry red wine.
THen went for CADS ,learn about common sense well better than spending a bomb like jocelyn.
WEnt to eat with zhen ling(YIenn GF0.o),yi enn,chit min and eccles ,ate thai food then went home.
ON my way to train saw,zai xuan,jocelyn and alcan ,chat a while pass them info then chiong to train pass things to jaclyn and emorine.
Train home smoothly,took a short nap ,sms peina,sinni,pohling and xinhwee^^Oh ya Fanny as well about class outing
Tomorrow got to go NCC to see how my bro trip is like dotz...
WEll,getting early sleep today again ,not touching on any work for now
slacked
LeIMen-Ray

18 day

2010-05-12T02:39:00.000-07:00

So tired now.
today was one of my funniest and most enjoyable day.
IT started early morning,went around school with weijie
seeing gals blah blah,chatted with SEan who just woke up.
Well HCDE was fun,in a nick of time i sketch my plan just in time phew
was super fun haha^^
Then was Effcom
got 10/15 for test super sad
was expecting more,need to work harder to get my A
then had a super fun APEL lesson.
Went to take Icool
then pass stuff to FDM ...
then went lunch with zai xuan,jaclyn,jocelyn,lisa,yee ching and shi qi.
Chit min went for lunch alone.
Wad a great time i had there haha
then meet wei jie ,go back school.
Saw Si Zheng in bus then chatted a while then sms a while^^
Reach school,took our e book then
went in staff room to chat with miss tan,miss deepa and miss koh^^
Wun forget wad we talk about
then went home super tired dun want to do anything then having a good rest
Exhausted to the brim
LeIMen-Ray

17 day of school

2010-05-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

Today,i overspend way too much.
Early morning meet up gina,fanny,Fiona,peng fang,lisa,jocelyn,huiqi,shiqi,yee ching,jaclyn and emorine.
went to mac ,ate breakfast spend $7 buck OMG
THen was about to late,
we Took cab to school ,3 cabs.
Was like walking here and there for the cab.
then spend $2.20,turn around campus just to go BLK 23 haha.
THen double lift up to our classroom and phew was in time^^
Was chionging here and there in CADS lesson^^
then was emath,sat with ti enn then we will like answering a lot of questions but me got only 18 marks for quiz one,so sad,aim for so high ,when u fall,it feel so badly even if it is just missing two marks,my perfection to full fail when the 2 marks was missing haiz.
After school,went tampines with zai xuan ,yiting and fiona.
ate at pasta mania for $10
Went popular to buy scapbook spend $ 5
ARgh spend like $30 Sian
must save money le...
THen went home took a nap
shower and ate dinner
no chionging work ,a pile of mountain and it is still piling
LeIMen-Ray

16 day of sch

2010-05-10T05:42:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS WAY WAY too WEIRD
This morning ,met xin Hwee at the bridge then walk to MRT station
HAd a fun and interesting conversation
Miss the first train and boarded the next.
ON the train then remember forget to bring MP3 haiz
them everything seem out of places.
DIfferent people ,different time ,different shifts.
IT felt as if the time has shift .
Camp outside the first lecture hall,doing HCDE ,REBUS blah blah.
then lesson start way boring as usual but manage to absorb some.
haha Sean enter and left our class like for 10 mins
THen was emath lesson,MR eric was like making a comedy
Screwing here and there,making the girls think dirty...
THen was REBUS ,my pencil is still with YUL
I was super attentive in KAt Koo lesson,then lunch
HAd a disturb lunce at blk23 engine canteen western
Dun want to bother...
THem was engmath test
Quick SImple
then finally HCDE ,had fun drawing my retail store.
WEnt out to eat with Gina,Fanny,Fiona,Peng fang,zai xuan and YIting
After dinner went back home all in their different routes
then me and fanny chatted on random Stuff
Wonder if i really like the G... or not haha.
Hope she will not tell anyone^^
Played fusion ball in Jeans haha
tired and thinking wad to do?
LeIMen-Ray

Sunday

2010-05-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

Today is mother day.
The least i can do is to make my mum happy .
Dream about G... again
oh my god ,wad is going on in my dreams and mind..
Well ,went for fusionball training,had fun.
THen order Pizza ,now waiting for it haha.
LAter wad to do i wonder.
I dun know why am i dreaming about G...
Argh ,how will i find out.
Oh my need to buy A3 scrapbook le
Haven buy oh gosh...
With out it i cannot do REBUS ...
Tmr got emath first test looking forward to it^^
LeIMen-Ray

Sat

2010-05-08T05:09:00.000-07:00

Was having a weird dream leh.
But the feeling was great.
Dream i hold a girl hand but this time i know who the gal is.
IT was like having a gf for a while
The feeling was Sweet(i never thought the gal will be G...)
Well then woke up early to attend YOG training
Sms the real person ,only thing i got was the coldness ..
it was bad ,just like opposite of my dream haiz..
Reality hurts.
Then the YOG was boring
the admiration was the organiser admit it was not organise well.
THen went back home
nap and sms Shu Xin
Haiz
Saturday..
Got so many things to do yet weekend ,cannot seems to do anything
LeIMen-Ray

15 Day

2010-05-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

Today was CCN day
HAd a short and simple lesson about CADS
then went to set up the stores
Stress at first but it was fun after
we made a profit
had fun chatting with Peng Fang Alcan and Mrs Leong haha
tired
LeIMen-Ray

14 day

2010-05-06T03:05:00.000-07:00

Wad a bad day.
It all started in the day.
I went out the same time
But i was no willing to take the normal train.
Then was late for my bus.
The bus went off just as we reach there.
Then i could not see the ite gal and another gal from tp Haiz
Then reach school,could not find alcan in library did not went to look for him haiz.
Then wrtoral sabo Gina then a lot of things happen.
Math lesson ,she was beside me
my guilty consciences make me quiet in front of her.
Then a group of us did not go CADS lesson.
Went subway to eat,PPL ps me PF and Fanny
As we will doing stuff with the CP.
Then forget to meet mariam ,feel bad cause only time we can meet haizz
Was carrying a lot of bulky stuff haiz around the bus and tampines.
Then sat with Gina again (beside),fiona,hui qi,pf and si zheng.
I kept num for as long as i could unless needed to talk.
Was completely shut today.
Then walk to huiqi house,pass them the stuff and i went home le.
Then took a nap and going fusionball
night then will study i think...
Depressed?maybe
LeIMen-Ray

13 day

2010-05-05T04:55:00.000-07:00

Today was prety normal.
have HCDE ,yay finally can ace my lab work^^
THen effcom test
lucky got do online so it was a breeze^^
then was a acad briefing
then got wad CCN briefing
and FDM camp....
need to give the class forms and blah blah
after school
meet with a lot of ppl
ate some snack instead of lunch.
THen had a fun time and super funny time with Lisa and jocelyn.
Gina talk more than usual^^
Shi Qi is hyper,While Fanny is busy doing wrtoral.
While Sin ni and Si zheng went to do cads.
Ainey and NAdhirah was having fun painting hahas
THen was piss off at 4 by someone
then went off without a word...
Angry at myself for wasting time,now got more things to do in less time
HAizzzz
LeIMen-Ray

12 day

2010-05-04T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hmm,today was okay
Morning did some work here and there
add breakfast
went and completed cads early ,help my frens then play with the software.
Then was emath then discuss about CCN day.
Then went for lunch
go buy stuff
went home
so tired
dun want to talk much
Still got work
Toodles
LeIMen-Ray

11 day

2010-05-03T06:19:00.000-07:00

Hmm,was normal.
Had fun chatting with ainey and nadhirah
have fun smsing sin ni and gina
Enjoy chatting with shiqi
Well a lot of things was in my mind.
Started with a unengaging rebus with no notes ,no interest blahblha
THen finally on vectors for emath
then had a engaging REBUS tutorial.
then had a irritating lunch.
Then got emath lesson where i was making fun of stuffs.
Then HCDE was super attentiVe and was engaging
learn quite a lot new things
LAb work 2 here i come,tmr a busy day
^^
LeIMen-Ray

10 day

2010-04-30T21:03:00.000-07:00

Shoots i miss my 10 day blogging.
Yesterday was pretty okay.
Beside the boring lectures.
I had a fast and fun CADS lesson.
THen our class stay back to finish but Raymond Wong book the lab le so he chase us out.
WE were unhappy of course.
DUring our short time there,me and zai xuan took the role of tutors to help our class mates,it was very interesting.
But good times never lasted.
Then went to talk with CP
THen went to find marketing comm
and see wad was happening
after which ,all went seperate ways
Went and buy mac then go home le
Then was using com i gues,cannot remember much.
Late night watching Species 3 with mum and bro.
While i was smsing JiaYi
LASt time never see and chat so lots of things to talk haha.
Blurry and so many homework
Chiong ,U can do it
LeIMen-Ray

9day of school.

2010-04-29T01:15:00.001-07:00

It has been 9 days since i been doing the blog journals haha.
Today was pretty normal.
Went to school early again.
Had breakfast at bread board with wei jie and Alcan
Had pratas.Me and weijie was chatting about my previous class in BVSS ,4e2.
Brought back a lot of memories especially the class chalet.
Then went to class,had wrtoral lesson,present ,discuss and answer.
Well,was fun i guess.
Then went for long maths lecture,class was noisy and i almost fell asleep.
Then come the dead lecture of CADS ,Lab is way better.
Then went for lunch with si zheng,fiona,fanny,zai xuan,pengfang,eccles,yienn,alcan,daniel and chit min.
Sat and chatted with fiona,zai xuan,si zheng ,zai xuan and yienn.
The lormee was not nice at all,so salty.
Well,then went to the upstairs with Si Zheng(she is very nice^^)To get drinks.
Tested quite a few flavours haha,so funny sia,
Spill here,drink here drink there^^
Great lunch^^.
THen went cyber centre to let my com be able to use the school internet,was long but okay.NO a good experience.
Then went book shop buy files,
Afterwhich went to the bus stop,zai xuan went to the nearer one while ,alcan, peng fang and me went across the road .
Chatted on random stuff and went home.
While coming back home,rain....
While it was okay,then sms with Nicholas haha.
NOw at home,going to do some work and study again i guess.
Sleepy me after the lectures...
LeIMen-Ray

8 day

2010-04-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty fun for me.
WEnt early to school.
Watch some early tv with wei jie and alcan
then went to class,
Had a bad start
screw my first lab assignment
need more pratice le...
THen was eff comm
Finish the lesson fun,chat with zai xuan.
Then was APEL,
discuss and had a share share with our CP.
Settle Wad to do on CCN day le.
then had lunch with the guys and zai xuan ,yi ting and fiona.
After which, zai xuan yiting ,fiona and i went to t1 to buy drink then walk yiting to the bus and she went home.
THe 3 of us then go simei to check on pricing and we sat down and chatted .
HAd one of the best time and then train to bedok,
Train to somerset,went for SHINE meeting then is doing on SPort section.
THen reach home,need help Yiting with some stuff,study then sleep le.
Tired and chionging
LeIMen-Ray

7 day of school.

2010-04-27T02:28:00.000-07:00

DO not like the class any more already.
Seem like i am getting depress over this issue.
Seems to me,i cannot work well with my class.
However ,i can work well with few of my classmates.
HMM,just hate it when ppl are bossy and rude.
Well,today went to school super early.
Reach at 8 while lab start only at 10.
WEll i had quite a fun time,studying and having breakfast.
MAybe shall do it again tmr haha.
Well lab started,it was fun for me as i was like chionging the lab.
So wasted that i could not completed it ,it was so close to completion.
Well ,i guess i will finish it soon.
THen was math tutorial.It was okay,enjoyed myself.
With Zai Xuan making things funny.
THen clarifed my doubts for 3x3 matrix ,now i know how to do le.MUahaha^^so freaking happy.
Then went for lunch then go library.
HAted the time there so not talking about it.
Went to tamps with Fiona,chatted on WRTORAL,blah blah.
Went home and going to do my studies in a while .
SO tired but must tehan
JIa YOu
LeIMen-Ray

6 DAY IN

2010-04-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

Hmm,today was super tiring.
Like it was the same,went to school early,do some maths and read HCDE.
THen start with Raymond Wong lecture,
He si good^^ had a good chat with Fiona.
Then came eng Maths,
HAd fun with Si Zheng,Fanny,Peng Fang and Sin ni.
Zai Xuan ,Fiona and Joanne was making noise on the top as well.
Well ,it was slow but had a good time.
THen went For ReBUS tutorial.
LEarnt stuff the hardway,I found her speech rather true.
SHe change my view and aspects about REBUS.
THen came lunch,went to blk 18-6 to get some books with Fiona and Yi ting.
HAd a good time,met up the class at salad bar after.
HAve dory fish,then went to bookshop to shop,Yiting went with me,then fiona pop by as well,walk to the math tutorial class together ,chat a bit.
Then making jokes and laughing it out at the math class,Way to go.
Finally the most information de
HCDE,draw and remember all the stuff
Good challenge for my brain ,
so loving my course,
Took 15 with Fiona and Peng Fang.
THen train back,ate dinner
went for Fuzion ball practice and back home
Blogging and studying
Toodles
LeIMen-Ray

firth day

2010-04-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

Boy boy,today sure is packed.
Hmm,went to school per normal time,with wei jie and alcan.
Went to the library,sat at the cable tv area and watched csi haha.
WEnt to class at 840.
There was only shi qi and jocelyn at first,slowly ,more people came in.
THen had a fun cads lesson with lisa and alcan.
YI ting was funny,she is a interesting gal.
Hmm,we chatted quite nicely.
Help out others in their cads assignment.
THen came EngMath lecture,was studying on my own but was stuck at 3x3 inverse matrix.
Hmm going to explore that.
After that was REBUS lecture.THe lecturer didnt came again,and mrs koo came and taught us but was late by 15 mins and we dismiss at 1 plus...
THen assist fiona and yi ting in some stuff for a while,then went to meet haziq and wei jie,join a few cca blah blah.
THen haziq went to his prayer.
WEi jie and i went back to school to take certs and testimonal.
was fast then went to the back brought something to eat and drink ,went to the bus stop,saw my bro.
Went PP today brought stuff,eat mac then went home.
Then now got a lot of things to do...
BUSy PAcked?
LeIMen-Ray

fourthday

2010-04-22T02:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm,today,lesson ended at 12.
Boy,it felt good.
Today was another day.
PLan wad to do on CCN .
BLah blah.
NO mood to blog as my bio clock still haven adapt
MOodLess
LeIMen-Ray

3th day

2010-04-21T02:25:00.000-07:00

Today was more of a self study day.
We had HCDE in the morning and was pretty okay la except the confusing parts.
THen effcom was doing el stuff on computer.
Finally,APEL and after that ,i got lots of stuff to do.
Went to eat after that.At bread loft
WEnt library,taught Chit Min and Peng Fang some Eng maths.
HOME sweet home.
when i was in the train ,i was trap with a decision.
I was faced in a situation where i was near the priority seats and the poster which has four different type of people who need the seat more,I was face with 4 diff person with each of the image shown.
The question now,who shall i give the seat too,in the 4 which is the most important?
Hve u ever ponder?
now i do.
In doubts
LeIMen_Ray

@nd day

2010-04-20T04:22:00.000-07:00

Hmm,Today was the second day,Pretty enjoyable.
Well today was short and sweet.
Well there was one disturbing part only,
That was the sms HuiQI SENT ME
I guess i was pissed at first.
HOwever after watching randy pausch last lecture
I see it differently.
I will change my flaws.
At least she told me that,if nobody tell me my flaws ,ppl would have given up on me and it would be a very bad place to be.
Tmr going to be tough i guess,since the toughest subject for me now is HCDE,THe one with so many words till i can get the ideas but the terms and all well ,let just say i cannot remember.
The rest seems okay.
I want to score in every subject.
GPA4.0 here i come,bac(s)PFM here i come.
Tmr going to be another good day
Exxxxx
LeIMen-Ray

Excellent Start.

2010-04-19T04:27:00.001-07:00

I had a great start on poly life.
I went to TP early and wait 30 to 45 mins for the ladies and guys of my class.
Everything turn out well.
JUst thought that i should have done something while i was waiting,What a waste of time.
WEnt to the first lecture,the lecturer was not present so we did not scan our matrix card and sat there and listen to Mdm Koo.IT was fun and the best was she finish the lecture material in just 10 min in a rush,exciting haha.
Went for the next lecture ENG math soon after,tap our matrix and had a slow 3 question quad eq and intro.
THen tutorial and tutorials.
THen lunch had dumpling noodles ,not very nice through.
Went to book shop after and was begging the gals to help us buy the stuff.
After that,went back to our tutorial was eng math,
Almost fell asleep but successfully kept awake.
THen had a interesting lab session .
then went home and it rain...
EXcellent
LeIMen-Ray

Full of Regrets arh REgRETs

2010-04-11T21:19:00.000-07:00

WEll,wad was the reason i wanted to join FOC?
I now know why but i have fail my purpose.
IT all started when a GL ask me why i join FOC.
I was stunned and mumbled COmparison.THis powerful word make me into a asshole.
WIth these word,i became anti social,emo,jerk ,asshole and low profile shit.
I was thinking in negative ...
So the camp went on ,i get more negative as the day go on till the night.
I was basically not talking to anyone ,only when there was a need.
Some more I miss the best day of the camp.
HAiz regrets thinking back
FOlKEN could have won easily if i had not been in that state.
I did not made a lot of frens i guess
FUll of Regrets ar regrets
LeIMen-Ray

HOwever ,my brain has been rebot and i know wad i want now

Unexpexted

2010-04-06T21:33:00.000-07:00

I have been wondering these few days...
At night,cannot seem to doze off,a lot of things inside my head.
Causing me to feel sadness,in doubt,happy,excited,nervous,all sort of feeling i must say.Due to this,i had been having some stupid dreams.
I have been watching animes and playing around.
My bro ask me to stop slacking and start to do something or my brain will be rusty.I now feel it even though he said it yesterday.Last night was out of my mind ,sms jeslyn not knowing how to reply and wad the toot was with my language...Had a headache i presume .Was not thinking but acting subconscious.I feel that something is missing.
BE it my frens,leadership or studies.These are going to reappear when school starts.
NOW in my face is jalan besar YEC .Should i join with my brother?It seem to be a daze for me.CAn i cope?that was in my mind,if i get too far in,will it affect my family?and faimily to be?
This morning,sweetheart sms me and i hope i open her mind regarding that issue.Oh ya,i recontacted some of the zz gals.Wad am i thinking?
NEvermind,it seem to be in a daze for me,staying home to long,losing commitment and passion for ncc,passionate about school and frens.
in a daze...
LeIMen-Ray

MISS you AAAALLLLLL

2010-03-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

SO mISS MY FRENS who ARE CLOSE TO ME
MY PRimARY SChool FREns HOW are YOU?????
HOPe WHen WE Are ADults in the WWork FOrce,WE STIll CAN MMEEEEETT UPPPPPP!!SO mISS MY FRENS who ARE CLOSE TO ME
MY PRimARY SChool FREns HOW are YOU?????
HOPe WHen WE Are ADults in the WWork FOrce,WE STIll CAN MMEEEEETT UPPPPPP!!

Part two of root canal treatment

2010-03-28T20:07:00.001-07:00

Well,today was the last part of my root canal treatment.
The dentist said no nid for the injection.
I felt happy but fear came in ,will it be painful.
It was a long and deadful process.
It was painless but my saliva was choking me.
TO the extent that both the ladies had To help me use the sucker to suck it out and worse thing was it was like dam sticky ,sticking to the mouth piece the rubber.
OMG,so embarrasing site.
Well ,everything went well.
GOing to book an appointment soon to polish and scale my teeth^^
More concern with my teeth
LeIMen-Ray

blogging starts

2010-03-25T21:22:00.002-07:00

I will start blogging again when poly life starts

with regards to mt ophir

2010-03-25T21:22:00.001-07:00

U can check out my pics on facebook instead.

2010-03-25T21:10:00.000-07:00

Grandma last moments before passing away.
Grandma do not look that nice when she pass away.
The funeral was on tues to thurs in the march holiday 16 to 18 march.
I have no comments but lot of emotions
Emotions?
LeIMen-Ray

Hold on

2010-03-18T02:08:00.000-07:00

Will be updating soon once my computer is set up.
Will post about the funeral as well as the mount ophir trip

Saddness in my eyes but still must teach correct values

2010-03-11T00:15:00.001-08:00

This is the state my grandma is in.
She is 98 years old .She can only respond so much and move so much.She do not talk at all and is always sleeping.this is such a twist since new year when i visit her,She was still able to talk to us and eat.Now she is so weak that she doesnt even want to open her eyes.
How often do you cherish someone close to you till you see she is in such a painful state.It is only when i saw my grandma with tube to be fed and cant move or talk much.It sadden me and make me feel bad.
My relationship with her was not very good.However such a sight change me .

Pls cherish your love ones.
I feel there is a need to help the elderly people.They are so lonely and in pain.
We need to help them to the best of our abilities.
Today ,i saw a group of students playing with the elderly.IT is such a delightful sight to see.
If only i have a team of delicated people to do such projects,it remind me of the project on wad team apache in myc did,so similar,but this was more heart felt .
Sadden
LeIMen-Ray

weird

2010-03-09T23:29:00.000-08:00

Last night was pretty scary for me.
Was thinking of aliens and supernatural.
It made me awake for an hour win the wee hours
Was think 3.33am die ,aliens contact time
Before 3.33am supernatural at its peak
it was such a relief when my watch reflect 3.40.
I was awoke at 2.37am by my nightmare where an arm grab me and the people around was screaming.
Phew ,nothing happens just scaring myself.

Now there is how news with regards to Jack,the director.
Well,it take to sides to have an affair.
However people are blaming either the ladies or Jack.
However ,both parties are at fault.
Now reading on,even a 16 yrs old was hit but she was mature enough to get away from him,only then the affair did not work out.However wendy accept his advances making jack more bold hence the affair rose and sexual activities occurs.
It takes two to start a affair ,both should be at blame but people do only blamed one side by their views.
What is really the truth ,we will not know.

This few days is my resting days before a ton of activities starts crashing in,however my right arm and shoulder are still injured,oh god ,wad to do.

Feeling Weird
LeIMen-Ray

last few moments

2010-03-08T19:52:00.000-08:00

Well yesterday went to HQ for a briefing but so many things happen.
Went there,there will people fixing the threate door,Central having trainfire at the mph,then cadets ask us where is the briefing venue.
Well,call for backup and resources and we dealt with it perfectly,a job well done.
WE settle everyone into the threate .
Amazing only me and alek was in there .So maj Tan assist me to handle central and alek east.
We did a pretty good job,i was praised by maj Tan,i was on cloud nine.
Well,guess central was busy ,so we should help them^^
Well ,Guess we did a lot of stuff not related to us,but to ensure our east district ppl have the proper briefing,i settle the central fast and efficent even though their forms and money had to be submitted on the briefing itself,however east distrtict had cleared all forms.
Well they might have a differnt system but i feel the system east have is pretty wonderful.^^
Well finish our job and awaiting mt ophir to come.So many things to do this 2 weeks.

In Trains?

2010-03-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

Firstly,I have a question for the readers
What is your mindset when you enter the train?

There are 4 differnt group of people,kids,young adult,middle aged and elderly.
What do the 4 groups have in common and in difference?
There are so many different mindsets and scenes .That will of course result in different reactions and results.
Well this is from my point of you,you may not have to agree.

Well lets starts from kids ,shall we.
3 group of kids,one alone,another with family,last is with frens.
What i know.
THe first group will just find one corner,play their psp or listen to music.
Well i hardly see kids in peak hour so i hardly know what they will do.Maybe due to the fact they are all studying.KIds do not refer to babies or child under 5.
Second group
They will just follow their families around,most likely the parents will find some seats if not just stand together.
last group,they will find a spot enough for all of them and discuss or play around.
Well ,almost all the 4 kinds will have the same mindset,to look for a seat or spot.

lets talk about scenes then
First scene
The train is pretty empty,there is only a few people,suffient seats for everyone.However,there would be people standing,most likely young adults.
IN their mind,a lot of thoughts actually happening.
second scene
The train is fill up halfway in terms of seats.There will not be enough seats for everyone.Funny thing is not everyone will go chiong for their seats only a few.
The rest will talk their time and see how it goes.

WEll i guess i am going to give up on this topic yet,look like not enough experiences to complete it,i will let it go for now,and finish it on a older age maybe.

Just amazing

2010-03-07T20:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes,i am just amazed how i impacted strangers than to my friends.
Firsty,2 random people find each other interesting and add each other,Then they start to chat online and slowly/fast chat in sms.
When they start to open up,they talk more about their lives and both of them start to support and advice each other.
That may not be the case.
Another case is,2 random people add each other for the sake of boredom then they will ignore the other person,most cases are like these.
third case
Firstly,same preocess then they started to chat and chat then finally they feel weird or dun seems to like the other person,they forget about it and ignore each other,which are quite common.
Fourth case,same process again,but this time they add each other because they are interested in the otehr person,he/she will keep chatting to him/her till they know whether he/she is right for him/her.
A few endings from here.
1.they meet up
i.they get molest/rape
ii.they find each other lying,slap and go away forever
iii.they fall in love on the spot and go into a relationship
-break up not long after due to lack of meetings
-break up not long after due to tough online relationship status
-maintain their communication and never break up (happily ever after 1%only)
-lose their virgins and hate each other /break up
well ,there might be more but i have not seen or read or experience about ut yet.
firth case(guys only)
They add chio bus online to hit on them.
Few outcomes
-become just online frens
-become in a relationship-break up 99%-maintain 1%
(because they will never be satisafed with their gf and will tend to look for more chio ones or so on....)
-one night stand...(most heartwrecking)
six case(ladies only)
they add shuai ke and hunks with good muscles
simlar outcomes
-become just online frens
-become in a relationship-break up 99%-maintain 1%
(because they will never be satisafed with their gf and will tend to look for more chio ones or so on....)
-one night stand...(most heartwrecking)(the gals will regret as always)
Are there more cases?I wonder,if you dare to open up share your experiences with me.
Hardly blog about sat or sun due to lack of events
LeIMen-Ray just azamed
^^weather hot
Alone just with my computer

Past moments

2010-03-06T00:20:00.001-08:00

After blogging yesterday,i took a quick rest.
Have maggi mee for lunch and went off to my school unit.
Oh my way there,i saw Pei Chun from NYC camp but she was asleep so i did not go and wake her up to say hi.Anyway left her a short message but it seems to be lost somewhere as there was no reply.
Reach my school(past)the mood there was so cold ,it feel so dead.It used to be buzzing ,noisy,fun and interesting place but now you only see silence.It give me the creeps too.The leaders are all losing their leadership potenial.
Being with them for the training,was filled with so many emotions,I could hardly change anything,i could only teach the specs.Well ,it had been a cool friday afternoon till evening and i cannot wait to get away from there.
This may seem very negative and indeed it is but what can i do,this is the fact.
To think from a positive side could be i could teach some people and impact some the correct way.Hmm,this seem very neutral.
Yesterday being exhausted ,i slept early^^
Today morning got a meeting with chairman of NCC,i enjoy my presentation and i felt i did well,this was a good experience for me and learnt quite a few stuff,being new in NCC but i experience way more things already than my intake friends.HOwever ,there are still more thing to come and to be learnt so must keep the learning attidute up there to do well.
After the meeting wasted 3 hours with other CLTs .But was pretty fruitful as we were discussing on POly stuff .
Well no extremely tired going to take a nap xx ... zzzz yawns
LeIMen-Ray with the Z monster

Positive is the Way

2010-03-04T19:26:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a pretty good experience for me.
Most of the cadet officers went to shoot ,leaving me ,gab,shayln and effie.
All the jobs i have to do exp with gab helping me with transfering of scores while shalyn and effie was doing the declaration.Maning the ear plugs,doing the rest of the admin work,being shot by my own co,so many things but i managed to survive and tell the tale.
Well,i managed to did a good jobs,got compliments from warrant officer.^^I was pretty angry but seeing the results i produced from another side of view change the negatives to positives.
Keeping the good memories makes your life better lived^^
So people who are impacted by me,see only the positives and not negatives,you will see new light and your life will be better lived^^
Happiness will unfold itself when you are positive ^^only then you will see the light and the happiness of being yourself.
While another unexpected event happened but i managed to cheer her up and she is now working towards a goal.
Well she was facing this,i bet many to face these.She was having a relationship ,a beautiful one at least,but was found out by her parents,her parents approach her boyfriend and ask her to be normal friends(break up).This emotionly affect the guy and was thinking what happen?he was depressed,his parent allow him to continue to fight out as they seem him so hapy with her ,they wouldnt bear to see him sad,his parent were angry with her parent for not goving him the chance.
This is a typical type of love test which were either destroy their love or strengthen it.
I advise my mei to continue,give what her parents want to get what she wanted.All parents want good results so i ask her to maintain the relationship and produce good results,she is currently working towards it .I wish her good luck.
I hope the guy will continue and support her towards her goal.
DO not do silly things,It is good to get advices from good friends if your parents cannot help you.
Think from another point of view and you will see the light and happiness will unfold in front of you^^
Positive IS THE WAY
LeIMen-Ray

feeling sick

2010-03-04T03:50:00.000-08:00

I am having a bit of headaches here and there.
So i cannot think properly,i hope i can blog soon again but these few days i am going to rest more,but everyday got events,i shall continue and never say die or give up.
Sick LeIMen

Brand new begining

2010-03-02T21:32:00.001-08:00

Another chapter of my life is about to unfold itself
With a new chapter,i should have a new blog to spark off this new chapter.
This should be a happy blog with less unhappiness post.
There should be more life impacting post instead of sad post .
Being an angel to many,i must show them the happy side of life.
This is my promise to my new chapter of life,I shall blog regular and not be playing around.
To sweetheart:BE happy and i will be there for u
To Cheryl MEi:Study hard,dun make ur kor sad or angry
TO pohLing:Hope we can be be frens since we are in the same poly
To PeiNa:hope we could be really good frens
TO all ncc Clt:hope to work together peacefully
this are the common ppl that will sms me or call me.
Wonder how my primary school mates are doing?
To amanda and ameila nuer:So sorry ,haven contact u all ,hope u all will keep in touch with papa
To LiCheng:Hope ur studies and relationship works for u^^
To Elaine & sheng fatt:hope to go out sometimes
Will add on,if they continue to keep in touch with me.
EVen thought being sick,i will continue in my believes
New Chapter
LeIMen-Ray

Thanks for the memories

2010-03-02T21:24:00.000-08:00

Thanks JiaEn(if i not wrong)She was my first best fren,we did everything together,play,chat,go out.That when she was still my neighbour.I lost contact with her and is itching to find out where she is now and to see if she remember me?i guess not .so many years have past and we would have become total strangers if i not wrong.Maybe we walk past each other but we didnt know?Anyway thanks for the first sweeteest memories^^This is when i started to chat with girls and feel comfortable with girls.
Thanks kaiyi and his sister plus her aunt to help my mother in bringing me up.They were great friends.We were close when i was a toddler but not to say now as they shifted out as well.Thanks for the cute toddler memories i have.
Well coming to nursery and k1 and k2.Well practically no recall of it.Guess was a emo kid when i lost contact with JiaEn?Skip these ba
Primary 1 i got to thanks jeffrey.He was my only fren i had in school.WE go canteen together and did everything together.Thanks for being there for me.But good things never last and it only stays for 1 year.I remember i would challenge him to be the first in the class in results or coming to school.It was fun^^
the next 5 years of great memories is thanks to ruijia,monique,sin miao,clement,jiayi,binglin,yina,shao xuan,
hui xin,xin hwee,joinng,elaine choy,szeling,cheryl tang and wong,
justin,shimin,shu xin,vanessa,meijin,jingwen,guiyuan,kendrick,joyceyln
,zhang sheng,wenyi,chris,ben10,wilson,ziting,jamie,zhiying and .... basically all my primary school friends.The best 2 memories are the 4f bukit timah trip and the p6 malacca trip^^
I have to thanks lixin,lioujing,diana,jiazi,congrong,
wenxin,su xuan,sheng fatt,licheng,adli,sarah,xin chee,wan
,junson,elaine,alena,amanda chin and amelia chin,chris,jievanda,weisin,jiayan(sc de),weiting,WinNI.Well pretty few i must say.
Thanks for the wonderful memories thanks for making me feel better.
Thanks to leroy and michelle goh for a great time at escapade
Redcampers thanks for the memories.JingWen,BangJie,Ellis,Ziying,carmen,sabrina
,peina,yuanhui,wailing,lynn,yitian,gibston,khairul,jolene,mei jin,daniel,errison,shamus,angelo,xinying,kei,keada,
yanping,qiufen,esther,ruilian,vyennuss,alex,alex chang,jayne,fiona,clara,nariko,gerald,rasmus,rastus,fedora,
poh ling and many more
58th COC thanks for the memories.Farizal,shalyn,ridhwans,
sebastians and the rest of boomz
Thanks you
Troubled Boii