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.Monday, August 30, 2010.

Why do i say there is emptiness in my heart?

Well, firstly, the end of YOG ended my colourful days. All the fun have become a permanent memories, which can never be found again but can be remembered in our hearts. All the bonds are weakening but it will not be broken. As more days pass by, many things were be forgotten and people go back to their lives.

This is what i find life amusing, it is like when bonds that are the strongest made from events,camp and YOG. ONce they end, the bonds weaken but it cannot be broken. Then as we move on our path, we tend to have so many weaken but strong bonds at the same time. For some of us, it will always be this case as there is no one you can depend on so called best fren forever. What is BFF? Does we all have BFF only that we dun realized. Then what is this emptiness i am feeling.

Well,i guess my feelings for my eye candy is also weakening. THe feeling is almost to zero. Well, at least the feeling was once real. She said in her facebook, when did everything start going wrong. Then in my heart, i felt since i crashed into your world. I will now permanent removed myself from her world. Funny thing is like, every one has a world. We who ventured into the universe in small crafts to find another world that we also belong to .(other half of u) We often get pulled into worlds we seems to be interested and leave when we face rejection or unable to adapt. Once u find the right world u can be,u settle down in their worlds and become marriage in real life.

Funny thing is that my craft was once in between 2 worlds, stuck by both world gravity once i thought YIseul world was for me then it wasnt as of yet . Then i was being pulled to Cheng Ee world whom i thought was for me but there was someone on her world. So being pulled by two world gravity,i belong to none. Cannot even go back to my own world. With my family world crashing into mine. Venturing into the universe and into the worlds, i felt freedom.

With an addition to my 'family' was another JieJIe, YUYIng Jiejie. She is a lovely JieJIe too. I think she is. After YOG i have 4 JieJIe, for the first that i felt there was support for me.

Back to reality, i need to keep to my plan which i create, i follow about 70% . Today i am way behind my plan.I will catch up. It is just frustrating. I need to grab a new MP3 player to create a barrier in my world so it will be the world i can go back too.

Emptiness
LeIMen-Ray



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